I never met Ryan Davis. I never knew his family, his personal life, he never knew I even existed, yet I still saw him as a mate. Why? Because since Giant Bomb started, and even the GameSpot years before that, I'd come home and no matter how bad my day was or what had happened I could jump on to this site and be happy. Ryan was part of that happiness. I associated him and the crew with good times, relaxing, fun, exciting times and all based around my favourite hobby that I've had since I was 3 years old.
I loved it especially when he'd get Vinny to do dumb stuff in a Quick Look or make an "arsehole" comment which was hilarious in its perfectly sarcastic, dry humour, or when something wild would happen and he'd scream "YEEEEAH!". Sitting there watching and listening to him for over 700 hours of audio and hundreds of hours of video in the last few years alone, and all of it fun and interesting and enjoyable. That's why I consider him a mate and that's why I'm so sorry to see him go.
Life can be so harsh and cruel. One moment you're beginning the start of a new era, and the happiest you've ever been. The second you're in shock, and a cold dark reality of sadness washes over you and no matter how hard you hope and beg and wish, it won't and can't ever change. That wound will never fully heal, but you also don't want it too. It isn't painful because of bad moments, it's painful because of good moments created by that person in your life. It's hard as hell to move forward and know you'll never experience that again but you'll always remember it and cherish it and grow as a person in honour of them, and you wouldn't give those memories up for anything in the world. That's what he did to the people around him and why it's so hard, it shows what a great guy he truly was, and I'm glad, even if I never met him, to have experienced his wit, sarcasm, and laughter on this site for so many years.
Edit: DAVID? GOD DAMN IT RYAN. THIS IS YOUR FAULT. YOU NARC. FUCK RYAN DAVIS, THE T-SHIRT WAS RIGHT. PINK T-SHIRTS ARE ALWAYS RIGHT.