Posted by TaliciaDragonsong (8699 posts) -
Note to self: Come up with a catchy title for blogs, or shit.
 
I wake up and check the clock, human impulse to think about time, and I see its only 6:13 AM.
Falling back into bed I try to close my eyes but I already know its futile, I'm awake now.
Slowly getting up, sitting on the edge of my bed, I remember shards of my last dream but after a few moments more I realize it was a nightmare so I jump off the bed before bad thoughts take me.
I've had this thought to go about my day with eyes closed for awhile now, just to experience blindness , but as I sleepwalk over to my closet and almost break my fucking toes on a chair I push the notion back a few more days.
Not much later I find myself operating the coffee machine, suddenly aware of the fact I'm a slave to routine, and it is with some reluctance I prepare my dark roast coffee.
But, my thoughts are fleeting and soon I am left with the morning papers, my cup of coffee and a quick breakfast.
The paper disappointed again, I saw two comics that would have been better in English and rolled my eyes at the feigned shock stories more than I cared to, so I put it away and walk over to the garden door.
 
I'm sad when I don't spot the fat cheshire cat waiting for me and I finish my coffee staring out into the yard.
Anyone who would have seen me staring out would have thought me just a lover of nature, while actually thoughts ran rampant in my head.
Thoughts of death and mutilation, of pain and darkness.
But not just any darkness, The Darkness 2, to be exact.
I've started the game last night, starting off with the Vendetta mode that puts you in the shoes of 1 out of 4 characters and drops you off with some pretty basic co op missions.
I, naturally, went for the lady and decided I was in love with this game as I executed a guy point blank with her Darkness infused shotgun.
 
Mind = Blown
After satisfying my lust for storyless killing I start the campaign and wow!
Blown away! Just as I expected but still I'm very much shocked by it!
The opening goes to hell within minutes and the narrative really gets to me, before long I am shooting a sub machine gun and a pistol while the tendrils of The Darkness throw, hack and mutilate their way around me.
I now know what was meant by 'quad wielding' when I heard it mentioned in some dev diary and I must say I enjoy the rush of power I felt playing as Jackie.
I'm nowhere far into the game, second mission barely, but I'm very much excited to continue the game.
 
Now back to the present, I decide to give up my job as a professional garden watcher and turn to go upstairs, all kinds of eager to continue The Darkness 2 and, guilty pleasure, read the responses to my previous blog.
I don't get far however, the bell rings just halfway up the stairs and it is back I go.
My mind, fully awake, did not comprehend the time and with a smile worthy of a sunny afternoon I open the door and downright scare the delivery man.
He hands me a huge packet of folders, too big to fit with the rest of the post (I'm quite sure its illegal to have such big packets of folders), and its not until he eyes me weirdly and I walk back inside that I realize I was dressed less than sane.
I try to push my bothersome curls (you may have heard of their reputation) down a bit but alas, I'm stuck with the Zeno Clash look for now and I decide that wearing a open blouse and underwear alone is not as sexy as the postman would have made me think, not to mention cold, thus I go upstairs to get dressed.
 
The horns only show on really bad days

I promised myself not to fret so much over some things but as I browse the forums of Giantbomb I can't help but feel agitated at some of the other Bombers and their responses.
Now, first and foremost, I respect every opinion even if I don't agree with it but I also expect a level of respect from people.
As well as sanity, which is a hard order coming from one as twisted as me, but nonetheless we are a community and if these basic rules are not enforced, or lived by rather, this place will soon go to shit and I would not want that.
Lets just keep this brief, I don't want to step on toes nor do I want anyone to step on mine because they still hurt from the 'blind-for-a-day-chair-in-my-way' encounter earlier.
I know it's that super awesome to feel insulted, to feel that rush and need to respond and tell the world how wrong they are and to proclaim your superiority.
But really, don't! Not all the time anyway!
Take a step back and READ what is being said, read it twice, read it out loud but for god's sake, READ.
All too often I see people scan a post, notice one or two things they don't like and off they go, insults and belittling a plenty.
If you don't want to read a post, skip it, it's what I do and so far its working out grand!
But I guess we could go deeper with this  (I won't however, not this time) and blame it on a need to be heard or listened to because I cannot fathom how some people around here think/act like they're super important yet do find the time to comment on things they 'FUCKING HATE'.
Just my thoughts.

Pictured: Rage

 Lets discuss fears, because I have some.
I'm afraid I can't match my previous blog, I'm afraid my previous blog is all kinds of genius and I won't be able to ever duplicate its success again.
The scared part of me, of any artist, that your pony has done its trick and that its off to the slaughter now is looming over me.
Nothing new though and it is with some clarity that I say this but I know it often feels different (heavier) and not as clear as it is to me today.
I've written enough to know I can write, I've received enough positive responses to know people like what I write and more than once I have been told I have a future in writing.
Yet still this fear keeps coming back.

I'm trying to walk this delicate line concerning personal stuff.
It's kind of hard, as I'll admit it's very tempting to write about my morning and how I relate gaming to things around me but I also fear I might be putting too much focus on myself and not enough on games when I write these blogs.
Which is the exact reason I blog so little.
But then again, on the other side, there's a thousand people out there talking about games.
Perhaps this is my 'secret sauce'? My special ingredient that brings all the boys to the yard?
I won't talk about my personal troubles or my sex life or any such things but I do feel a need to associate my writing, my experiences and my mental mood with gaming.
And frankly speaking, are those things so far apart then?
I live with games, everyday again, and I love it.
If anyone feels somehow annoyed by my writing I guess...well, click it away or send me a critique.
It's getting a bit tiring to be so self doubting, is that a good sign? I think so, I'm done with silly people.
Until the next panic attack that is.
 


As I said I played a bit of the Darkness 2 and already there were some scenes that got to me.
Which I will now spoiler tag because it kind of spoils both Darkness 1 and some of the beginning in Darkness 2 and I cannot urge you all enough to go and experience it for yourself!
 

The game is first person and it stays first person in all it does.
You wield the guns, sure, but you see Jackie's arms subtly turn and twist as you shoot, mimicking real movements (to an extent, of course) you would perform firing two pistols yourself as well.
Where in other games you just see things from that perspective, in The Darkness you live as Jackie and when you experience cut scenes it really adds to it.
The game is made with your first person view in mind, things happen all around you but it never seems to forget you can't see everything at once.
People have missed scripted explosions or story events in shooters before, simply because it all happens as you walk by, it's too big and too detached.
Which is fine for a war shooter perhaps, bring you the frying pan experience, but in The Darkness I really feel connected to the game, its story and its characters.
 

Just a little more, stick with me here!
I spend the morning playing some more Darkness, get up to my ankles in gore and storytelling, go off to write a little Darkness inspired piece of writing and then it's out the door I go.
You see I checked my console games collection and I realized I was done with some games.
I've played the hell out of Red Dead Redemption, I lived in its multiplayer for a month, and I've done all I wanted in Bioshock 1, Oblivion and Halo 3/ODST.
I've still got to finish Skyrim, start Bioshock 2 and I've got Halo Reach to scratch my Halo itch until Halo 4 comes around.
So I grabbed em, went to the local gamestore and traded them in for store credit.
'Only' 44 euro's but ah well, that's enough for a 3DS game (any recommendations? I'm thinking Pokemon Conquest, I'm in the mood for weird kinky foreign stuff) or I might save up for Halo 4.
I also ordered both Borderlands 2 and Darksiders 2, both games surprised me silly when they came out and especially Borderlands is just downright mental.
Eager to play Darksiders 2 but yeah, EU release eh? Fucking publishers.
 
My plan for the rest of the day is terribly dull, mostly consists of cleaning and cooking but hopefully tonight I'll be able to continue on with a game, or writing.
Which reminds me that I kind of want a new book to read, might go for the Witcher book but I heard bad things about the translation.
Ah but fuck it, ain't that like the east european version of a game? Bad translation is half the immersion!

I hope.
 
Too long didn't read version:
#1 Posted by TaliciaDragonsong (8699 posts) -
Note to self: Come up with a catchy title for blogs, or shit.
 
I wake up and check the clock, human impulse to think about time, and I see its only 6:13 AM.
Falling back into bed I try to close my eyes but I already know its futile, I'm awake now.
Slowly getting up, sitting on the edge of my bed, I remember shards of my last dream but after a few moments more I realize it was a nightmare so I jump off the bed before bad thoughts take me.
I've had this thought to go about my day with eyes closed for awhile now, just to experience blindness , but as I sleepwalk over to my closet and almost break my fucking toes on a chair I push the notion back a few more days.
Not much later I find myself operating the coffee machine, suddenly aware of the fact I'm a slave to routine, and it is with some reluctance I prepare my dark roast coffee.
But, my thoughts are fleeting and soon I am left with the morning papers, my cup of coffee and a quick breakfast.
The paper disappointed again, I saw two comics that would have been better in English and rolled my eyes at the feigned shock stories more than I cared to, so I put it away and walk over to the garden door.
 
I'm sad when I don't spot the fat cheshire cat waiting for me and I finish my coffee staring out into the yard.
Anyone who would have seen me staring out would have thought me just a lover of nature, while actually thoughts ran rampant in my head.
Thoughts of death and mutilation, of pain and darkness.
But not just any darkness, The Darkness 2, to be exact.
I've started the game last night, starting off with the Vendetta mode that puts you in the shoes of 1 out of 4 characters and drops you off with some pretty basic co op missions.
I, naturally, went for the lady and decided I was in love with this game as I executed a guy point blank with her Darkness infused shotgun.
 
Mind = Blown
After satisfying my lust for storyless killing I start the campaign and wow!
Blown away! Just as I expected but still I'm very much shocked by it!
The opening goes to hell within minutes and the narrative really gets to me, before long I am shooting a sub machine gun and a pistol while the tendrils of The Darkness throw, hack and mutilate their way around me.
I now know what was meant by 'quad wielding' when I heard it mentioned in some dev diary and I must say I enjoy the rush of power I felt playing as Jackie.
I'm nowhere far into the game, second mission barely, but I'm very much excited to continue the game.
 
Now back to the present, I decide to give up my job as a professional garden watcher and turn to go upstairs, all kinds of eager to continue The Darkness 2 and, guilty pleasure, read the responses to my previous blog.
I don't get far however, the bell rings just halfway up the stairs and it is back I go.
My mind, fully awake, did not comprehend the time and with a smile worthy of a sunny afternoon I open the door and downright scare the delivery man.
He hands me a huge packet of folders, too big to fit with the rest of the post (I'm quite sure its illegal to have such big packets of folders), and its not until he eyes me weirdly and I walk back inside that I realize I was dressed less than sane.
I try to push my bothersome curls (you may have heard of their reputation) down a bit but alas, I'm stuck with the Zeno Clash look for now and I decide that wearing a open blouse and underwear alone is not as sexy as the postman would have made me think, not to mention cold, thus I go upstairs to get dressed.
 
The horns only show on really bad days

I promised myself not to fret so much over some things but as I browse the forums of Giantbomb I can't help but feel agitated at some of the other Bombers and their responses.
Now, first and foremost, I respect every opinion even if I don't agree with it but I also expect a level of respect from people.
As well as sanity, which is a hard order coming from one as twisted as me, but nonetheless we are a community and if these basic rules are not enforced, or lived by rather, this place will soon go to shit and I would not want that.
Lets just keep this brief, I don't want to step on toes nor do I want anyone to step on mine because they still hurt from the 'blind-for-a-day-chair-in-my-way' encounter earlier.
I know it's that super awesome to feel insulted, to feel that rush and need to respond and tell the world how wrong they are and to proclaim your superiority.
But really, don't! Not all the time anyway!
Take a step back and READ what is being said, read it twice, read it out loud but for god's sake, READ.
All too often I see people scan a post, notice one or two things they don't like and off they go, insults and belittling a plenty.
If you don't want to read a post, skip it, it's what I do and so far its working out grand!
But I guess we could go deeper with this  (I won't however, not this time) and blame it on a need to be heard or listened to because I cannot fathom how some people around here think/act like they're super important yet do find the time to comment on things they 'FUCKING HATE'.
Just my thoughts.

Pictured: Rage

 Lets discuss fears, because I have some.
I'm afraid I can't match my previous blog, I'm afraid my previous blog is all kinds of genius and I won't be able to ever duplicate its success again.
The scared part of me, of any artist, that your pony has done its trick and that its off to the slaughter now is looming over me.
Nothing new though and it is with some clarity that I say this but I know it often feels different (heavier) and not as clear as it is to me today.
I've written enough to know I can write, I've received enough positive responses to know people like what I write and more than once I have been told I have a future in writing.
Yet still this fear keeps coming back.

I'm trying to walk this delicate line concerning personal stuff.
It's kind of hard, as I'll admit it's very tempting to write about my morning and how I relate gaming to things around me but I also fear I might be putting too much focus on myself and not enough on games when I write these blogs.
Which is the exact reason I blog so little.
But then again, on the other side, there's a thousand people out there talking about games.
Perhaps this is my 'secret sauce'? My special ingredient that brings all the boys to the yard?
I won't talk about my personal troubles or my sex life or any such things but I do feel a need to associate my writing, my experiences and my mental mood with gaming.
And frankly speaking, are those things so far apart then?
I live with games, everyday again, and I love it.
If anyone feels somehow annoyed by my writing I guess...well, click it away or send me a critique.
It's getting a bit tiring to be so self doubting, is that a good sign? I think so, I'm done with silly people.
Until the next panic attack that is.
 


As I said I played a bit of the Darkness 2 and already there were some scenes that got to me.
Which I will now spoiler tag because it kind of spoils both Darkness 1 and some of the beginning in Darkness 2 and I cannot urge you all enough to go and experience it for yourself!
 

The game is first person and it stays first person in all it does.
You wield the guns, sure, but you see Jackie's arms subtly turn and twist as you shoot, mimicking real movements (to an extent, of course) you would perform firing two pistols yourself as well.
Where in other games you just see things from that perspective, in The Darkness you live as Jackie and when you experience cut scenes it really adds to it.
The game is made with your first person view in mind, things happen all around you but it never seems to forget you can't see everything at once.
People have missed scripted explosions or story events in shooters before, simply because it all happens as you walk by, it's too big and too detached.
Which is fine for a war shooter perhaps, bring you the frying pan experience, but in The Darkness I really feel connected to the game, its story and its characters.
 

Just a little more, stick with me here!
I spend the morning playing some more Darkness, get up to my ankles in gore and storytelling, go off to write a little Darkness inspired piece of writing and then it's out the door I go.
You see I checked my console games collection and I realized I was done with some games.
I've played the hell out of Red Dead Redemption, I lived in its multiplayer for a month, and I've done all I wanted in Bioshock 1, Oblivion and Halo 3/ODST.
I've still got to finish Skyrim, start Bioshock 2 and I've got Halo Reach to scratch my Halo itch until Halo 4 comes around.
So I grabbed em, went to the local gamestore and traded them in for store credit.
'Only' 44 euro's but ah well, that's enough for a 3DS game (any recommendations? I'm thinking Pokemon Conquest, I'm in the mood for weird kinky foreign stuff) or I might save up for Halo 4.
I also ordered both Borderlands 2 and Darksiders 2, both games surprised me silly when they came out and especially Borderlands is just downright mental.
Eager to play Darksiders 2 but yeah, EU release eh? Fucking publishers.
 
My plan for the rest of the day is terribly dull, mostly consists of cleaning and cooking but hopefully tonight I'll be able to continue on with a game, or writing.
Which reminds me that I kind of want a new book to read, might go for the Witcher book but I heard bad things about the translation.
Ah but fuck it, ain't that like the east european version of a game? Bad translation is half the immersion!

I hope.
 
Too long didn't read version:
#2 Posted by impartialgecko (1631 posts) -

Revisiting The Darkness a month ago reminded me what a bummer Syndicate's single-player was. Starbreeze the the first-perspective so right with that game. Haven't played 2 yet but at least Digital Extremes attempted to do right by the legacy of the original.

#3 Posted by Video_Game_King (36272 posts) -

That note to is, incidentally, how I (should) begin all my blogs.

#4 Posted by fox01313 (5083 posts) -

Just finished the Darkness 2 over the weekend & had a blast though I thought for the Vendetta mode the Scotsman or the Voodoo master worked better. All the characters seem good but just harder depending on who you're playing with early on. Cheers to someone else on the site that's a fan of the dark roast coffee. Great post & have fun with whatever you do on the other side of the pond.

#5 Posted by LikeaSsur (1565 posts) -

The Darkness series is definitely one of my favorite in gaming. It's one of the few first person shooters with an actual story in it, and while the first one is dated, the story itself still holds up really well. 2 is just as good, I think, even if....well, you'll see for yourself.

You're asking an awful lot regarding the rules of this community. At it's basic level, this is just a large internet forum, keyword is "internet." Everyone's the main character in their movie of life, and annoying side characters (aka everyone else) shouldn't speak out of line.

It's a shame that you trade in games, but that's coming from someone who will never play Evergrace again, but still has it around for "just in case." Ah, well, I see why you would do it (I mean *insert demeaning and insulting comment here about how dumb you are for trading in games*).

I'm not sure of the types of games you're into (I assume story plays a big part), but Theatrhythm is the only 3DS game that's caught my eye. It's about as weird as you can get, plus it's not Pokemon. That's always a plus.

#6 Posted by TaliciaDragonsong (8699 posts) -
@adam1808: Never played it, it got too much hype at the start and after a month the bad reviews told me all I needed to know!
Not a real shooter fan anyway, save for stuff like Darkness or Timesplitters, the odd ones out!
 
@Video_Game_King: Then do so, goddamnit.
 
@fox01313: Glad to find another Darkness fan!
I really like Shoshanna since her shotgun is unlimited ammo (save for reloads) and her damage output with the gun channel ability makes her almost invincible.
I also like Desmond and Jimmy, but Shoshanna has my vote! :)
 
@LikeaSsur: I'm eager to find out more about Darkness!
I know about the community thing but hey, I'm just speaking my mind, as they are.
Giantbomb is the only forum I've ever been for longer than a month, so I kind of feel part of it! :P
I was just done with the games however, and I've little money, so yeah. Not a tough chocie for me!
#7 Posted by IkariNoTekken (990 posts) -

Lovely read.

I really do need to get my Xbox sorted so I can continue The Darkness. I've only played the first hour or so.
Though truth be told, I know a lot of the major plot points (including ALL the stuff you included in that spoiler).
Do you think it's still worth playing?
#8 Posted by TaliciaDragonsong (8699 posts) -
@IkariNoTekken: Very much so, the atmosphere and gameplay are pretty unique.
Probably best to put it on easy though, the gameplay might be a bit outdated for some, it even got to me! But it has a cool vibe! 
Lots of story and text to be heard, if you like the universe and the game in general it should be worth playing through for the experience.
I also knew the spoiler stuff but experiencing it was something else.
#9 Posted by IkariNoTekken (990 posts) -

@TaliciaDragonsong:

Yeah, from what I played I really liked it. I'll definitely continue. Thanks.

I was actually playing it on Hard before as I enjoy a challenge and I was going through a bit of a 'achievement junkie' phase back then too. I'm gonna keep going on Hard but hey, if I come to you saying it's too difficult, feel free to rub this in my face. :P

#10 Posted by Slag (4616 posts) -

I've long felt that the smarter/more talented/more empathetic you are, the more likely it is that you will chronically doubt yourself. The reason being is that you have to be reasonably smart to envision/conceive how stuff can go wrong. This seems to be magnified for people who live in their mind, daydreamers, writers, artists etc. Seems pretty natural to me this happens to you, since you have writing talent.

Some of the happiest people I've ever met are not thinkers. Some of them have been really proficient at one thing or another, but generally they aren't people that think ahead. Live in the moment types. They do stuff purely because they want to do it, and don't even consider what could happen or could be. I could never live that way. They are happy but somehow it also feels like they are missing out.

That's the tradeoff I guess for intelligence/talent. I have no answer for this chronic doubt

#11 Posted by ComradeKhan (687 posts) -

Well, you've sold me on the Darkness 2. I played through the original just before the release of the sequel but never got around to actually purchasing it... Don't stress yourself out thinking about your future blogs and worrying that your creativity is running out. Creativity, like time, constantly flows and unfolds in ways that you can't predict but you can learn to harness, shape, and bend to your will.  I have wrestled with this fact for most of my life as a visual artist in my younger years and now as a musician. You never know when the next lightning strike will ignite that fire inside you, because the beauty of true creativity is that it will constantly replenish itself and reinvent itself in ways that will surprise you... I would agree that your personal touch is your "special sauce", or at least its what brings me to the yard... Great blog, but i believe the best is yet to come.

#12 Posted by mosdl (3229 posts) -

The voice over direction in the Darkness 2 really helped the story telling. I would love a HD remake of the first one using the Darkness 2 engine, but that just reminds me there will probably not be a third one...

#13 Posted by D_W (1179 posts) -

I had not played the Darkness and went to look up a particular scene you mention. Still brought tears to my eyes. I think the characters of Jackie and Jenny are probably the best or the most real of any video game series so far.

#14 Posted by ShaggE (6555 posts) -

While I doubt a Darkness 3 will ever happen, I'd love to see one. Those games feel like they come half an inch short of their potential, and if they can bridge that gap, it'd be an all-time classic.

The big spoilery moment involving Jenny in the first game is one of my absolute favorite scenes in gaming, incidentally. From that moment until the credit roll, I was out for honest-to-Mike-Patton vengeance.

#15 Posted by TaliciaDragonsong (8699 posts) -
@Slag: Thank you, some wise words!
That's the silly thing about it though, I 'know' I got a talent for this but still the fear keeps sneaking up on me.
I really feel unplugged from the Matrix but I'm very conflicted if it wasn't better to be, as you put it, unaware and such.
 
@ComradeKhan: Thank you, so do I but actually feeling like you're doing something meaningful is a hard feeling to achieve for me, at times.
I've written stuff and totally loved it but I've also written stuff I hated (which, funny thing, was pretty loved by my writing buddy or others).
Its just that fear everytime that you hit the jackpot...but luck won't last.
But as I said in a previous blog more and more I start to tire of that doubt, which feels like I'm done trying to tell myself I'm bad and its time to accept I'm decent!
Oh, I finished Darkness 2 last night, it was 12.5 hours long but its one of my all time favorite games now.
And I really never expected anything to bump Zelda/Mass Effect off their thrones but damn, first The Witcher 2 and now this.
 
@mosdl: Have faith! Darkness 2 came out of nowhere, perhaps 3 will just pop up as well!
I must agree with the voicework, the Darkling was pretty funny and the voice of the Darkness was amazing how it twisted and turned as it spoke, kind of reminded me of some very dark and fucked up Joker from Batman.
Also really liked the accents and slang of the mobsters, Jenny's emotion and those guys at the nuthouse.
 
@D_W: I thought so, they look pretty generic too in a way and it really spoke to me they were so perfect for each other in all their imperfections.
Especially in Darkness 2 there's a lot of emotion you can just feel surrounding the two.
Besides, they went for black hair and a lip piercing, that alone told me these guys ain't going cliche route with it.
 
@ShaggE: Again I ask, why not? 2 came out of nowhere so perhaps 3 will to.
The only feeling I've had while completing The Darkness 2 is that its probably asking too much of you at a certain point to fully embrace The Darkness gameplay wise.
Perhaps it was because I played with mouse and keys but I seriously lacked fingers and focus to use all of Jackie's skills at the same time.
I tried though, you can fire both weapons while slashing with your right demon arm AND you can also use your left arm to grab/throw/etc stuff.
Somehow I always felt a little held back but on the other side, come on, shooting two guns like a maniac, channeling the gun skill, unleashing a darkness swarm, the darkling running around and you're going mental with 
both the tendrils? Little overpowered perhaps! But so much fun! 

Thank you all for reading, in any case.
#16 Posted by ShaggE (6555 posts) -

@TaliciaDragonsong said:

@ShaggE: Again I ask, why not? 2 came out of nowhere so perhaps 3 will to.

One can certainly hope. I often forget that we live in a world where Duke Nukem Forever is on store shelves, ROTT is getting officially remade, and craziest of all, Snoop Dogg is now Snoop Lion. Truly, anything can happen.

#17 Edited by ComradeKhan (687 posts) -
@TaliciaDragonsong: To be honest i just tuned in to your writing for first time on that last blog you wrote, and if i had to say what it was that grabbed me it would be the personal narrative - not necessarily the video game talk (even though you have undeniably good taste in games and relevant insights about them). So if your pony's "one trick" is having something so say that may transcend simple video game banter then thats a pony i will continue to ride (i don't know how i feel about that metaphor, but i think you know what i mean). 
I come to GB for the video content and an occasional silly comment on the forums. i'm not much of a blogger or blog reader for that matter, so the fact that you've got me reading yours and even summoning a response from me seems like you must be doing something meaningful. 
Glad to hear that the Darkness 2 was so good to you, i'm kind of excited to try it now... video games! 
#18 Edited by TaliciaDragonsong (8699 posts) -
@ShaggE: You mean a world where yearly installments sell like mad and get hailed as innovaters? Not to mention there's about 7 game of the year games in store.....Yuck!
 
@ComradeKhan: Thank you for the kind words! That really inspires me!
Not the pony part, that made me feel violated, but I got your point.
I'm glad I managed to entertain you for a bit then, hope to do so again!
#19 Edited by ComradeKhan (687 posts) -
@TaliciaDragonsong: haha, sorry. it's just that I know all to well what you mean with the fear of being a one trick pony, as i've recorded songs that got so much praise it made me afraid that i couldn't live up to it. So i assembled an awkward metaphor about it and decided to leave it for comedic purposes, don't be offended.
#20 Posted by TaliciaDragonsong (8699 posts) -
@ComradeKhan: I wasn't, don't worry! I'm often very sarcastic and stuff, so don't judge too quickly!
If I'm mad or anything (angry mad, not raving mad, which I clearly am) you'll know!^^
 
I don't like ponies though, smug beasts.
#21 Posted by Dad_Is_A_Zombie (1225 posts) -

Glad to see Darkness 2 getting some appreciation. I've really enjoyed the franchise and hope it's sold well enough to merit a third game.

#22 Posted by ShaggE (6555 posts) -

@TaliciaDragonsong said:

@ShaggE: You mean a world where yearly installments sell like mad and get hailed as innovaters? Not to mention there's about 7 game of the year games in store.....Yuck!

*shudder*

#23 Posted by Gravier251 (217 posts) -

I rather enjoyed both the darkness games. I definitely liked the style and flow to Darkness 2, I pretty much played it through in a couple of sittings.

Though this has reminded me that I never actually tried the multiplayer. I wasn't too sure if the multiplayer content/narrative would really live up to or fit well with the single player stuff. After having finished Darkness 2 single player I put it aside thinking I might return for the multiplayer a bit later but time and other things distracted me and I completely forgot. Not sure if people would even be playing it now, or if it is viable solo.

The Jenny stuff was certainly brilliant in both games, some quite quiet, subtle moments with it like the first game with just watching the tv if I remember right. It does a really good job of investing you in their relationship.

As for arguments, a different opinion can be interesting and enlightening leading to an interesting discussion. The main issue largely seems to come down to delivery where "interesting ideas, though personally I think x because y" in a respectful manner could lead to interesting discussion, sometimes people opt instead for "I disagree, x is right, you stupid idiot". Then it devolves from there :/

Sometimes they can make a good point but bringing it down to a confrontational standoff damages the discussion and can close people off to the idea out of principle. I still recall as a kid being on a forum and mentioning in regards to Aeris that Squaresoft had apparently intended some means of resurrection but scrapped it/left it out from what I had read. To which someone rather aggressively pointed out that her death was meaningful, and any sort of means to "fix" that would undermine the meaning of that moment. Albeit they didn't quite phrase it that way, and I didn't feel like replying to how they had approached it in a hostile, insulting manner for me having even brought that up, I felt that what they were saying did have merit and began to look at it that way.

Differing opinions are good, I think it is just important to stay open minded or at least not let the discussion get personal/venomous.

As for writing I know the feeling, I get really self conscious over writing, wondering if it is good enough, if it is worded correctly, etc. When I do write something e.g a short story people seem to be really positive of it, though I tend to always look at it and find things to nit pick with it and revise several times. Same with drawing >.<

I spend quite some time double checking forum posts even before putting them up hehe.

hit it quite perfectly in regards to creative doubt and being prone to thinking and empathy; tends to lead to being quite critical of your own work, spending time daydreaming, pondering, picking apart every last detail of a piece and feeling convinced that it isn't quite good enough. It is frustrating to work through, and dosn't seem to ever fade, but I think it is a good thing. Nobody is infallible. A chronic awareness of that fact about yourself tends to keep the mind open to ideas, and the fact that others have good points too :)

Anyway, lest I start to ramble on down some tangent, in closing; Darkness 1+2 are great and it would be nice to see a third game show up someday. I'd be happy to see it continue in the same vein/artistic style as 2 as I rather liked it. As for the doubt, it'll probably stay, but it is a useful trait at times. Keep writing regardless as usually people enjoy the piece a lot more than you dare to think they might. That is what I have found in the past with the few things I have written at least. Though has been years since I brought myself to write something >.< doh hehe.

#24 Posted by TaliciaDragonsong (8699 posts) -
@Dad_Is_A_Zombie: Same here! Lots of potential still!
 
@Gravier251: Multiplayer is pretty simple but some good story moments.
I liked getting direct orders from Jackie or Vinnie, kind of working along the sides of the story.
Way better than expected.
 
Opinions are great, I love em, to each their own!
But I've seen so many "Lol @ you/your opening post/statement/whatever" posts.
Followed by the topic creator going like "huh?"
To which the "tough guy" responds with "Lol didn't mean it like that, haha subject subject ^_^"
Sick of that, be nice from the get go, or make your joke but be good about it.
I love other's suffering as amusement as much as the next insane person but that doesn't mean I'm actively out to hurt people for pleasure!
 
Nothing is ever perfect, so we just gotta do what we can and release our writing (and fears) into the wild at some point.
#25 Edited by Little_Socrates (5683 posts) -

I really enjoyed reading this. Your writing fits the "New Games Journalism" model in a lot of ways, one that acknowledges how much games have become a part of life.

Man, The Darkness 2 is such a great goddamned game. I think everyone who hasn't played it will be shocked by how many "end of year" lists it'll be showing up on.

EDIT: Also, I didn't get to play enough of the multiplayer either. If any duders/duderettes are interested, my gamertag is LittleSocrates1, feel free to contact me.

#26 Posted by Ravenlight (8040 posts) -

@TaliciaDragonsong said:

I don't like ponies though, smug beasts.

Followed for accurate characterization of farm animals. Also, your blog was a fun read.

#27 Posted by TaliciaDragonsong (8699 posts) -
@Little_Socrates: Thank you, that's good praise! Such a shame I have zero interest in journalism! 
 
I really hope games like The Darkness 2 and Witcher 2 get some more shout outs, they really deserve it and its almost criminal how unknown/underplayed gems like these are in favor of...well, cheap thrills and such.
 
@Ravenlight: Haha, double thank you!
#28 Posted by NegativeCero (3014 posts) -

I think that adding a little bit of you in your writing is something you shouldn't be afraid to do. I've always been taught to find my "writer's voice" so that anytime something of mine is written, ideally the reader would be able to tell I wrote it without knowing beforehand. This style may just be your own voice that sets you apart from other bloggers. And as long as you're genuine, I would expect your blogs to be as well received as your last and as this one seems to be.

I've never played the Darkness and that plot twist has been spoiled for me, so I almost feel like it isn't worth it without that unexpected impact. The Darkness 2 looked cool, though. Too many games to play.

@TaliciaDragonsong said:

My special milkshake that brings all the boys to the yard?

Fixed, unless you weren't referencing that one Kelis song from a while ago.

#29 Posted by mosdl (3229 posts) -

@Dad_Is_A_Zombie said:

Glad to see Darkness 2 getting some appreciation. I've really enjoyed the franchise and hope it's sold well enough to merit a third game.

I believe it flopped badly. Didn't have much of a marketing campaign and I remember a lot of people complaining about it being short.

#30 Edited by Jeust (10756 posts) -

@Slag said:

I've long felt that the smarter/more talented/more empathetic you are, the more likely it is that you will chronically doubt yourself. The reason being is that you have to be reasonably smart to envision/conceive how stuff can go wrong. This seems to be magnified for people who live in their mind, daydreamers, writers, artists etc. Seems pretty natural to me this happens to you, since you have writing talent.

Some of the happiest people I've ever met are not thinkers. Some of them have been really proficient at one thing or another, but generally they aren't people that think ahead. Live in the moment types. They do stuff purely because they want to do it, and don't even consider what could happen or could be. I could never live that way. They are happy but somehow it also feels like they are missing out.

That's the tradeoff I guess for intelligence/talent. I have no answer for this chronic doubt

In my perspective, that isn't the whole picture. The cool thing about doubt and self doubt is that while you are in doubt you are safe. You aren't risking anything, not advancing with your talents, not putting them to the test along with your dreams. You run in circles in your mind, through the mazes you envision, always safe. It's a tool, it is a protection, a way of escaping from the unpredictable reality. A creative way of doing it.

And the way to deal with it, is through your sensations. When you feel you are right on just move forward. Doubting will just slow you down and confort you. If that's what you want it's fine, if not, fight it.

That's the way I see it.

About Darkness 2, I loved the beginning, and the middle of the game, but with the spike in difficulty in the latter parts of the game, I can't avoid feeling frustrated with some enemies, and disappointed with the repetitive nature of combat. This blog makes me more motivated about finishing, but still I'm not convinced. ahah

#31 Posted by Slag (4616 posts) -

@TaliciaDragonsong said:

@Slag: Thank you, some wise words!
That's the silly thing about it though, I 'know' I got a talent for this but still the fear keeps sneaking up on me.
I really feel unplugged from the Matrix but I'm very conflicted if it wasn't better to be, as you put it, unaware and such.

hey no problem.

Grass is always greener on the other side as the saying goes. Where the "blissfully unaware" (for lack of a better term) seem to really suffer for their lifestyle is when things do go wrong. My friends who are like that usually are largely incapable of handling severe adversity well.

Besides it seems like you are getting some pretty universal praise here for your efforts, so it can't be all that bad ya?

I know it's easier said than done. I certainly don't have your writing talent but I too chronically have similar feelings, so I can relate a bit to what it might feel like. Perhaps that's why what your wrote spoke to me.

anyway you keep writing like this, I'll keep reading and I know others will too.

#32 Posted by Little_Socrates (5683 posts) -

@TaliciaDragonsong: Believe it or not, I don't think the New Games Journalism people are very interested in journalism either. It's more about personal anecdotes and creative analyses can be used to look at the way we play games. Just a catchy name that caught on, I guess.

I wasn't a big fan of The Witcher 2, but I can acknowledge that it's a great game for its audience. More people should definitely play both, though, as I think both those audiences are pretty darn wide. And yes, they're far better than certain other games getting the spotlight.

#33 Posted by TaliciaDragonsong (8699 posts) -
@NegativeCero: Thanks! You should pick Darkness 2 up on a steam sale and play it just for the immense power rush it provides! ;)
I was referencing that song but I decided not to use milkshake because...now the song is stuck in my head again.
 
@mosdl: That's sad! :(
 
@Jeust: Hard enemies? You were playing something wrong then!
The gun channel skill was pretty overpowered, you could easily grab a guy and make a Darkness shield with the fourth execution option and if you dual wielded you'd mow everything down.
Not to mention you can just click the middle mouse and your right tentacle starts whipping and slicing.
Game kind of wants you to go full power all the time, got to eat some hearts and execute people for the health/cooldown/ammo/shield but never did I feel like it was unfair!
 
@Slag: Again thank you! Its these kind of words that keep me going!
And yeah, I keep getting so much praise, I think I need to drop the doubt and started having a ego.
As in, walk around with sunglasses all day since I'm cool, yo.
 
@Little_Socrates: True that, but I was talking about I have no interest to go do a study in journalism and stuff.
Which is too bad as I might have really had fun doing the job.
 
Witcher 1 is curious, its fun and a great game sure but its also pretty rickety.
The camera angles (always go for the behind the shoulder cam), the menu's, the alchemy, the lackluster fighting.
I don't mind these, I know how to look past gameplay issues, but a lot of people won't give this the time of day.
Which is fine somewhere, I rather not play something I don't feel good about either, but its a downright shame they are so harsh to the game while its one of the best and most intense games ever.
 
We as a gamer community really have to watch out for the yearly installments is what I say.
I enjoy Assassin's Creed or CoD too, but not as much as I did other titles that pop up.
To each their own, but we gotta keep that original mill running!
#34 Edited by Jeust (10756 posts) -

@TaliciaDragonsong said:

@NegativeCero: Thanks! You should pick Darkness 2 up on a steam sale and play it just for the immense power rush it provides! ;)
I was referencing that song but I decided not to use milkshake because...now the song is stuck in my head again.

@mosdl: That's sad! :(

@Jeust: Hard enemies? You were playing something wrong then!
The gun channel skill was pretty overpowered, you could easily grab a guy and make a Darkness shield with the fourth execution option and if you dual wielded you'd mow everything down.
Not to mention you can just click the middle mouse and your right tentacle starts whipping and slicing.
Game kind of wants you to go full power all the time, got to eat some hearts and execute people for the health/cooldown/ammo/shield but never did I feel like it was unfair!

@Slag: Again thank you! Its these kind of words that keep me going!
And yeah, I keep getting so much praise, I think I need to drop the doubt and started having a ego.
As in, walk around with sunglasses all day since I'm cool, yo.

@Little_Socrates: True that, but I was talking about I have no interest to go do a study in journalism and stuff. Which is too bad as I might have really had fun doing the job. Witcher 1 is curious, its fun and a great game sure but its also pretty rickety. The camera angles (always go for the behind the shoulder cam), the menu's, the alchemy, the lackluster fighting. I don't mind these, I know how to look past gameplay issues, but a lot of people won't give this the time of day. Which is fine somewhere, I rather not play something I don't feel good about either, but its a downright shame they are so harsh to the game while its one of the best and most intense games ever. We as a gamer community really have to watch out for the yearly installments is what I say. I enjoy Assassin's Creed or CoD too, but not as much as I did other titles that pop up. To each their own, but we gotta keep that original mill running!

There are some enemies that arm themselves with light, which makes the darkness powers useless to them. And they are bullet sponges too.

#35 Posted by TaliciaDragonsong (8699 posts) -
@Jeust: Aye but that's the challenge.
The guys in white coats carry huge lights, which you can shoot out and there's some lights in the area which you can disable either by shooting or blowing up their power (follow the cables!) generators.
They also use flash grenades but just retreat back into a dark corner or whatever.
Lets face it, if you had full reign the entire game you would be invincible.
#36 Posted by Jeust (10756 posts) -

@TaliciaDragonsong said:

@Jeust: Aye but that's the challenge. The guys in white coats carry huge lights, which you can shoot out and there's some lights in the area which you can disable either by shooting or blowing up their power (follow the cables!) generators. They also use flash grenades but just retreat back into a dark corner or whatever. Lets face it, if you had full reign the entire game you would be invincible.

Yeah, that's true. ahah

#37 Posted by Scottish_Sin (224 posts) -

Nice blog!

I also have Borderlands 2 on preorder. Loved the first one and I would like to try and get back and finish some of the DLC I never got through but with Dust: An Elysian Tail, Sleeping Dogs and then Darksiders 2 next week my plate is pretty full so I don't know if I'll get around to it before it lands.

The only thing about Borderlands for me personally is I find it hard to play that game solo after my initial exposure to it was playing it in co-op. It's still fun on its own but I always feel like there's something missing when I'm not playing it with friends. While it does seem like Borderlands 2 will be better and lot more crazier than the first, I'm just wondering if it'll fall into that same trap for me. I have a few friends to go through it with anyhow so hopefully it's not a problem.

Where do you fall? Do you prefer playing Borderlands solo or co-op?

#38 Posted by TaliciaDragonsong (8699 posts) -
@Scottish_Sin: Thank you!
I've played most of Borderlands through solo but then my cousin joined me and since he's the only one I ever play co op with I had to restart with him.
I enjoyed it together, it added a lot, but I think its too dependent on class for me.
I had a lot of fun as Lilith and I suppose Roland could have a easy time as well but I really felt Mordecai was harder in solo since once you're spotted you'd get shot at by a lot of people which would fuck up your aim terribly by the impact!
Brick as well, his builds were really meant to soak damage and be a distraction so compared to Lilith especially I had no will to play again solo after finishing it!
 
Doesn't matter though, Border 2 looks to be more versatile and all classes seem to have some cool tricks up their sleeves.
The best is to just co op what you can until you're sick of it.
 
I can recommend the Zombie and Knox DLC, Knox is the best piece of DLC ever.
Ever.
#39 Posted by Slag (4616 posts) -

@TaliciaDragonsong said:

@Slag: Again thank you! Its these kind of words that keep me going!
And yeah, I keep getting so much praise, I think I need to drop the doubt and started having a ego.
As in, walk around with sunglasses all day since I'm cool, yo.

Well good! That's exactly why I make sure to say so when I see someone put out a good piece.

and looks like your avatar already has sunglasses on so I guess you're already on the way to having an ego eh?. ;)

#40 Posted by pyromagnestir (4327 posts) -

@TaliciaDragonsong said:

I was referencing that song but I decided not to use milkshake because...now the song is stuck in my head again.

Serves you right. It was stuck in my head as soon as I read that line. I was just about to go to bed too, but now rather than just laying in bed with that chorus on repeat I'm spending some time listening to other songs to maybe make it go away. So far I've been unsuccessful. Soon I might have to consider Plan B.

#41 Posted by TaliciaDragonsong (8699 posts) -
@Slag: Haha I wish I was half as confident as Shirley Manson!
 
@pyromagnestir
Don't you mean?
#42 Posted by pyromagnestir (4327 posts) -

@TaliciaDragonsong: Ha! Would he be singing me a song? Or beating me about the head? Or both? I honestly would have considered anything, as I woke up early with Milkshake still stuck in my head.

#43 Posted by TaliciaDragonsong (8699 posts) -
@pyromagnestir: As long as he visits my dreams I don't mind what he does.
Nathan Fillion <3
#44 Posted by Guided_By_Tigers (8061 posts) -

The Darkness II is so good, finished getting all the achievements a couple of days ago.....I usually don't care at all about the storylines of most games, but I was enjoying the stoyline of the Darkness II and I hope they make a 3rd one to continue the story.

#45 Posted by pyromagnestir (4327 posts) -

@TaliciaDragonsong: Ha!

Also maybe just a bit too much information.

#46 Posted by falserelic (5469 posts) -

I skipped out on the darkness 2 when I found out it was short. But sense the darkness 2 is cheaper now I'll check it out.

#47 Posted by Tim_the_Corsair (3065 posts) -
@TaliciaDragonsong I know exactly how you feel regarding your writing and doubting yourself.

I'm in the fun situation now of having a short story coming out in an anthology next month, which is my first published fiction (and in a book, no less), and all I could think about for ages was "oh god, what if the editor made a mistake picking this story up and it is utter shit and everyone hates it and oh god oh god god"

...and then I got another story picked up that hasn't actually been written yet, and I am struggling to write it at all and keep hitting the wall and questioning my pitch and everything about it and thinking that maybe I did peak with that first story and that's it now, I'm done, I'm a fraud, oh god, oh god, oh god.

So thinking you at shit AND that you're only going to get shitter, that's fun haha.


Anyway, uncharacteristic outpouring of inner fears and insecurities aside, just wanted to share that I get how you feel, and I honestly think you (like several others on here, actually) have a real talent at writing and I find it a pleasure to read these blogs.

You're also totally right about the Darkness.
#48 Edited by ComradeKhan (687 posts) -

@TaliciaDragonsong said:

I think I need to drop the doubt and started having a ego.
As in, walk around with sunglasses all day since I'm cool, yo.   

We already knew you were cool, but sunglasses would really seal the deal for anyone still on the fence about just how cool, yo.
#49 Posted by TaliciaDragonsong (8699 posts) -
@Guided_By_Tigers: Yeah it's one of those games where gettings all the achievs is worth it! 
 
@pyromagnestir: Oh hush, Nathan is great.
 
@falserelic: Took me 12,5 hours to get the story.
Very silly to hear people say that's short (nothing personal, general observation) while all the Call of Duties are million sellers and barely have 6 hours of campaign.
Not to mention they just don't even come close in the quality of the story department.
 
@ComradeKhan: Damn straight!
 
@Tim_the_Corsair: Thank you!
I know exactly what you mean!
I think people who are creative and work with their soul usually are very prone to get hurt by their own feelings.
We set a immensely high bar for ourselves when it comes to such things.
One week I'm the best writer ever, the next its taking me all my willpower not to burn my back up hard disk.
#50 Posted by ValiantGrizzly (498 posts) -

Right on. the Darkness 2 is amazing.