About Ryan? When the news hit, I was in disbelief, but couldn't cry no matter how hard it was.
It wasn't until the Mailbag with all of the flowers over his desk and the somber shot showing it. It sunk in there, I actually shed tears right then. It felt fully real for the first time.
Then, "That's So Ryan" was just so hard to watch, even if it was a glorious video. It just is something I wasn't prepared for. All of this. Crying for a dude I never met, but we all know so well.