Beginning to finally be comfortable with who I am

no offense but everyone feels down sometimes also cool story bra.

Good for you man. Allow me to try to tell that to myself.

Every now and again I  get hit with bouts of Depression;Nothing I can do but wait it out.

 I don't know why this made me laugh. 
 
Everyone has felt gloom sometime in their life. I think it's part of growing up. Some people get over it, while other's kill themselves and/or others. Tis the way of the Crab Dragons.

I live in a constant state of agony where silent tormentors invade my waking thoughts with deep tendrils of doubt and confusion as they burrow into the most private caverns of my mind and  thrust upon me dark deeds to be carried out in their name of their immortal lord Thyly'glrys'ryae so that he may one day regain the full glory of his wizened form and tear through the thin veil that separates our world from the world of nightmares. Upon that day he will once again cast the universe into an eternal haze where entities of free will are reduced to shambling husks and the essence of life itself is broken and reduced to but remnants, never again to return to its former glory as death envelopes all and the very idea of hope is overcome by the terrifying whiteness of a mind that knows not even the very concept of thought. 

The dental is amazing though.

Yep, I constantly wonder why I keep doing things and waste so much time doing things because I'm just going to die anyways. I find existence absolutely pointless but whatever I don't even care because there's no point worrying about it.

" I was hoping this would be a thread on how the OP has come out of the closet, and the resulting gay panic from GB homophobes. "

You'll have to excuse some of the jerks here at Giantbomb. They don't realize they're lame.
 
Anyway, I'm glad things are looking up for you and that you're feeling more comfortable in your skin. That's good. Everyone should feel good about themselves. You seem like a pretty cool guy. It can be hard fitting in and the pressures of life can be really overwhelming, so I can sympathize with you, and I think we all can. It's nice that you enjoy helping people. It's always a good idea to try to surround yourself with people that make you happy. 
 
I live in a pretty rough life. Far worse than I think most people have to deal with, to be honest. But it hasn't all been bad, and it hasn't always been this way. I've definitely had my fair share of good times growing up. Even though things have gone downhill a lot in recent years, it's never slowed me down much. I've never had issues with depression. I think people just sometimes have the wrong mindset about life, you know? I really don't believe that depression is a disease in any way, though many would argue that it is. Personally, I try to take the bad and use it as fuel to do good. People that know me always want to tell me that they can't understand how I deal with living in my situation, and how I'm still such a good person despite of it. Well, I guess that's how. Light up the darkness. It will lead you to great places.

I think it's pretty normal to feel gloomy once in a while, I know I do. But if it's something that's interfering with your daily life, then a doc wouldn't be a bad thing.

Awww that's great to hear!  
 
College is a pretty great time. The environment allows for more personal growth and the social aspect is a lot easier to deal with than high school. I definitely had a similar experience when I first started.  
 
Keep hanging in there!

" Waaah. Take yer fucking pill and stfu. Glooooooomy.  wooooh I'm glooomy :'''''( Are you crawling in your skin, too? Try dealing with fucking PTSD, then go write a fucking blog. "

" @Mrnitropb said:

" Waaah. Take yer fucking pill and stfu. Glooooooomy.  wooooh I'm glooomy :'''''( Are you crawling in your skin, too? Try dealing with fucking PTSD, then go write a fucking blog. "

Forgive the human race for people such as this, blackbird. If their parents could have seen what their offspring would become, they likely would have reconsidered. What in the world is wrong with you, Mrnitropb? I do hope you find solace in your lack of wit and understanding, otherwise your existence has little meaning. "

I had a depression that lasted a couple of years but honestly im super happy that i did.

You learn so much about yourself in a state like that, so my advice would be to embrace it!

Yep, I've had those times. But I'm at a high point in my life right now.

gay

So this is why the Internet sucks...

" @Pinworm45: um you just pimped your own illnes so doesnt that make you a hipocryte? "

I know what it's like to go through depression, it's a tough challenging moment that only you can pull yourself out of. Surrounding yourself with people you love helps, and keeping a positive attitude is the best cure. 

" I know what it's like to go through depression, it's a tough challenging moment that only you can pull yourself out of. Surrounding yourself with people you love helps, and keeping a positive attitude is the best cure.  "

Man I used to do three, four caskets a day. Drop it in the woodchipper and munch munch we had this green woodchipper a 1967 Ford Gremlin with sparkled rims and just takes two or three minutes to go through a full casket, sweet chestnut -- mahogany takes longer and broke the motor just can't rush into the hard woods used to know a Rockefella mistress who'd do two mahogany caskets every day she had the nose of a vulture and a voice to match

I tend to just chill out and listen to music when I'm feeling down, or just sleep. 
Given the fact that I don't have a real job or anything and my entire schooling was for absolutely nothing, it definitely makes you feel that you can't contribute anything to the world sometimes (though if most posters in this thread are an example of the world today, then thank god I don't contribute anything to them). That's probably why I just stick with helping out my friends and family with things I know I can do.
 
All in all, just play some more video games to distract you from the bad times.

So a bit of existential depression, eh? Advice: read wiki articles on existentialism (and existentialists) until you feel smart. Works every time.

I have had crippling depression most of my life so I can't really give any advice on the topic. However I will say that I came in here expecting a story about someone coming out of the closest about being gay, and was kind of disappointed when that was not the case.
 
Anyway, hope ya get better. Only thing that works for me is to suffer through it and hope that you can find things to take your mind off it for a few hours at a time or that when you wake up tomorrow you will feel differently.

...I came in here assuming you'd be coming out and admitting you're gay and being proud of it.  Fail man, complete fail.  Just another emo thread.  >.> 
 
Where is the heart GB?!  

Yeah depression sucks, had a bad bout with it when i started junior high, my grade school buddies abandoned me and it wasn't till  I met up with my new crew did it subside. I've been relatively happy since then, except a few weeks ago when i found out i had to junk my ride, the realization of not being able to drive or buy a new one because i have no job, sent me into a funk. Friends,comedy, and videogames are good for pulling out of depression at least for me.

" So a bit of existential depression, eh? Advice: read wiki articles on existentialism (and existentialists) until you feel smart. Works every time. "

Give yourself fully to the electric monkey

OP looks a bit like Badger from Breaking Bad.

" @altbotdos:   Can you flex your penis? *pulls down pants* Nnnnggg.....Nnnngggg.....Nnnnnnngggggg......Nnnnnngggg....*pulls them back up* No, you can't. "

" @Mrnitropb: I love how you deleted your original post or it was removed lol. Your pathetic.  "