? Sorry, couldn't add the question mark. Anyways, not even 30 minutes ago I was playing F.E.A.R., yes, F.E.A.R. it was a bit intense 'cause I was playing somewhat tactically on hard with my 5.1 home theater system on. I hear a scream from my mom that's in the next room over, her bathroom to be more precise, and I was just thinking "OK, what was that for? A spider scare her?" Then she says "SOMEONE'S TRYING TO BREAK IN! CALL THE COPS!" And my alertness went way up, I jumped out of my chair, into the hall way, looked at my older brother as he was trying to dial the number, my mom runs to the home phone (which we never really use), and calls the cops. While she was doing that, the guy looking threw her window, runs really fast over to our front door and starts bashing on it, my mom starts screaming and almost hyper ventilating as she's on the phone. I was thinking as blood was rushing to my brain "WHY THE FUCK HAVEN'T THE POLICE GOTTEN HERE YET!?" And then we go into her room and sit for a little while, the police knocks on the back door of the house and all is over. They just got done looking around and all that. I'm still a bit jittery and I'm mad right now, but at the time, I can't believe I was scared, it was just so surprising since I never expected this to ever happen. Our neighborhood is a good place to live, and that stuff isn't known to happen around here. I know it isn't right of me to wish death upon someone else, but fuck, I hope whoever this guy gets killed. Anyways, sorry if this is jumbled, but I can't write right now. It really questions your safety when shit like this happens. If this fuck had a gun and did break in, I would have been done for as well as my mom and brother. I have another older brother, which is the twin of the one that's home, but he moved out during the summer, and my dad works night shift. Ughhh. Damn. Alright, I don't usually do personal stuff, but I had to vent a little. I'll come back in here and edit this if I feel like it later.
12:00 AM PST
Edit - So! Everyone went to bed except for me. I'm often up at night though, but for a while now I have been getting on a schedule. My adrenaline is still up though and I am quite tired. I'm sitting on the couch typing this up as there are multiple lights on that aren't usually on at this time. I just can't believe this would happen. In all of my 21 years of life this has never happened, and every other place I've lived have been far worse places to live. I've lived in three different places, this being four, in Western Washington. I think I'm most scared because I thought this would never happen, and that's the one thing I guess I'm ignorant on. Plus, my mom being scared like she was didn't help, it was like someone was going to die, and there was nothing we could do. I should have been stronger, and I'm trying to find an excuse as to why I wasn't. I think if this guy did come in the house and he had no weapons I could have taken him, but just the fact I don't know who he was or what he may or may not have had is a scary thought. I said before that I want this guy dead, and I shouldn't have. I'm always against that. If someone said "OK, so if Hitler was right in front of you, would you kill him?" and my answer is always no. No matter what, but I guess I don't really know what I want to do when my adrenaline is that high. It's extremely hard to stop worrying. I don't actively watch the news, but when I do and have heard about these stories, I never really cared, but once it happens, shit! It completely changes your view. Anyways, I'll probably be up all night unless I pass out. Hopefully this never happens to anyone else on here. It may not seem as bad when I'm explaining it, but if it ever did happen, you'd know. I don't really feel like editing this, so sorry if it's hard to read. I'm gonna lay down now. I just can't wait until it's day time. It feels exactly like when I was little and I'd hide my head under my blanket and hope I made it through the night to daylight when I can be with the awaken society and with the ones I love. I just keep taking deep breaths. Ughhh. Alright. Good night. I could keep going, but I won't. I KEEP HEARING SOUNDS!
2:13 AM PST