so I didn't how or where to talk about this, but I've spent a fair amount of time on the GB forums over the years and it's one of the few places I'm comfortable talking about this.
I'm 26 and for the last few months my general moods have been changing. Starting around June I began to get panic attacks related to my summer job, I went to a therapist in July to try to seek help with these and for the most part it helped. In August when I started my second year of med school I was definitely more stressed, but although I came close to a panic attack multiple times, I never actually experienced one. However since around the middle of August, I've been experiencing these periods of just feeling down, I can't really describe it, but it's like all my self doubts and negative emotions are magnified to an extreme degree and even though things are going well (not amazing, not terrible) it feels like doing anything is pointless, sometimes it's like I'm bored with everything, sometimes I just feel sad.
These feelings aren't constant, and when things are going well, the nagging self doubts are there, but I can deal with them, but in times of stress (such as this week when I have an exam on tomorrow) it's like I go off the deep end, I become extremely negative and irritable. I'm living with my girlfriend whom I love deeply (and who is in the same class as me) and it's starting to affect her significantly. She suffers from GAD but is able to cope, unless I go into one of these moods which then causes her extreme stress and I suspect is making her question whether this relationship is good for her. She mentioned today that after a period of 10 days of being good, this week has left her really worried that I might permanently end up like this, and said it's becoming depressing to be around me. I think that sleep is playing a huge role here, because for the last few days (of which I've been feeling down) I haven't been able to get a decent nights sleep (I either can't fall asleep or I wake up in the middle of the night and struggle to get back to sleep).
I'm worried that this is going damage or end our relationship, which scares me.
So I guess the point of this whole rambling topic is do any of you duders or duderettes have any experience with anything similar to this? Do you think it sounds like depression? How have you coped with your experiences and do you have any advice for me?