Almost didn't check the forums this morning. Glad I did. :)
Thank god. I'm glad things are okay for now. You weren't an attention whore, you were someone that needed people to listen and be there for you. There's a difference. We'll all be here if you ever need that again, too. That's the whole point of a community. We're all in this together.
I'm sorry my posts weren't very heartfelt and basically amounted to asking the staff to reach out, but I was in work when @duskvamp told me about your thread so I was unable to pour my heart out. Gimme a rain check, and whenever you want one of my rambling emotional speeches, you got it, anytime.
Phew... man Im glad you are ok, couldn't post on the blog but trust me we were all really worried, I know this ist much coming from just a random dude on the internet that you never meat before but Im happy you are not dead, and like others said will be here if you ever need to get something out of your chest.
yay :) I'm so glad you didn't do this. Just remember, it never hurts to reach out to people, even on a forum just to vent some frustrating with the way things are going. Don't worry about asking for help either. We all need help from others. I know just some dude on the internet but if you need to talk just pm and I'll help in any way I can.
Glad to hear you're okay. :) I don't post on the forums much (I avoid them unless I want to read people complaining about SimCity,) but I caught the post yesterday and it's been in my thoughts since.
We all have low points in life, so don't be ashamed. Pick yourself up off the ground, dust yourself off and remember that a lot of problems can be dealt with by just talking it out. Never be afraid to talk, your friends sound like they want to help and if you can confront your problems you're ahead of the curve.
@artemesia Fuck yeah! This was weighing heavy on my mind all day yesterday. Really happy you decided to stay. Here, I made (Didn't make. Found on Youtube) this for you.
And as others have said, do some good for yourself. See someone. Hell, blog your ass off. Writing things down is what I do for my depression. But do something. We may be a bunch of idiots on this site but we're a bunch of idiot who stick together in a crisis.
P.S. I just wanted to also say I was dreading the worst this morning and didn't want to see the forums but I'm really glad I did. And again, thanks for staying with us.
When I woke up this afternoon and found I had seventy(!!?!) private messages and a couple personal emails I started crying. It seems so matter of course when they come in one at a time, but to see so many in one place and people trying to contact me directly outside of the website, people that I deeply respect and look up to... I was just overwhelmed. I am sorry for causing trouble.
Don't be sorry. Everyone needs help from time to time. If you ever need someone to talk to I'm always ready to hear. :)
I hope you are better now.
I didn't post in your previous thread, but like many others I was really worried that it could be the last thing you ever posted.
I'm really, really glad that wasn't the case. Everyone goes through hard times, but remember that the world is a better place with you than without you.
@artemesia: Very glad to hear you're okay, I thought there was a fair chance you weren't coming back. You don't need to apologise and you weren't being an "attention whore" when you posted that first thread, whenever anyone goes where you went, they don't think straight. Judging by your post here I think you know this, but asking for help and reaching out to other people is the most important thing you can do in a situation like yours. Have a good one.
@artemesia My stomach twisted and then I felt relief when I saw this topic in the forums. Like everyone else I was worried and upset that you might be actually doing it. I'm glad that you had a change of heart. If you ever think about doing this again, know that there'll be tons of people out there sick to their stomach in worry about you. We might not be able to see you in person, but all of us in the Giant Bomb community still care; we care a whole lot. So do what you need and get yourself some help.
Don't forget that we have the rest of eternity to be dead. We probably only get this one chance to be alive. Now's the time to enjoy anything and everything in the world. There's always something to enjoy in the life, we just need to find it.
@artemesia: I did not see the original thread, but I'm very glad to see that you have friends and loved ones who are supporting you through this. Maybe that's the most important thing to come out of this -- knowing you are not alone and you have people who love you.
Thank you for letting us know and more importantly thank you for posting your intent before. I'm very glad you did, I think we all are. If you hadn't done that, no one would have been able to help you. As it was by the time I saw your thread it had already been locked.
There are caring people out there, all you ever need to do is ask and generally someone will help you. Your female friend and your housemates I hope showed you that.
Going forward you'll likely need to make some life changes to find your happiness again, but don't lose hope it can be done. and you can do it.
Right now I think you should stay where you are as it sounds like your roommates really helped you and will hopefully help you keep you safe in this phase, but in the longer run I think you may need to change your environment to something less stressful for yourself if you can. You've been through a lot in recent years from the sounds of things and feeling pretty low and frustrated especially when money is tight. You don't need to feel shame about it as that can happen to anybody.
If you can change your situation, I think you'll feel better about yourself. And trust me kid , someone as well written as you has definitely not maxxed out your potential, you've got a lot of upside ahead of you.
Just hang in there, You will get through this.