This requires a little back story to it first, when I was a kid, I wasn't the best at school when it came to math and homework, I stressed easily and had my schooling specially adapted, my math at school/homework was reduced, but when I started in Junior High School (or Lower Secondary School in UK) they completely dismissed the letter from my former principle and ignored to specially adapt my schooling, one of the teachers called me lazy. To fully understand how broad the ignorance they displayed, they had a psychologist study my background and she told the school that the school has to adapt my schooling, that is when one of the teachers called me lazy (except the principle, he's a cool dude). In their ignorance, they payed the price in 9th grade, I was working on a project when I heard a voice in my head that wasn't my own
At the time I didn't understand what was going on, I heard a voice that I couldn't control, so I thought It was my imagination going wild, In a fucked up kind of way, It kept telling me that I can't trust no one, that everyone was out to get me so I had to kill them first. I ignored this, when I came home It said that my mom doesn't love me and etc, I said to myself "If the voice continues I'll tell the school's Superintendent"
The next day I told her, she was shocked and told me to go to the nurse immediately, that was when things were set in motion to get me the help I needed, this took time, however. I had to live a few days with the voice(s) in my head, at 1 time when I went to bed I had around 10 - 16 voices in my head at once, It was mental torture. To make things worse, this girl started to bully me for no reason, so the psychosis made me see do horrible things, I'll keep the details out, I went and told a Superintendent about this the next day, the same day she came to me and apologized and never bullied me again (If you get bullied, tell someone, ask for help, there Is no shame In that).
As time went on, I received the help I needed and the school finally adapted my schooling and got proper medication. As time went on, I figured out ways to battle the psychosis, to those who are battling psychosis read this:
1) If you are like me and you actually see the psychosis in form, the next time you see It, start concentrating, really concentrate on the entity, see a door arise right in front of the entity and shut it, add locks to it, lock that motherfucker in TIGHTLY with every imaginable locks, bolts and chains, and when It is done, sink that door down, then shut a trap door. If you don't see the entity but hear It's voice, try imagining a voice wavelength and mute it (or shut the door) Remember, you have to concentrate to make this work.
2) If the psychosis gives you images, violent images of people harmed or dead, imagine it as a piece of paper, like a bad idea, imagine you are crumbling it and throw it into a waste dispenser or fireplace, again, concentrate really hard on this. Both tricks will take some practice and doing it over and over again.
DON'T FORCE THE PSYCHOSIS. Let it come to you naturally, ONLY when it "shows" itself do you do this.
I gave these 2 tips to the shrink, she told them on to other patients and it works for them! So why not you? (Note, If you suffer from schizophrenia, I do not know If this will work for you, but you are welcomed to try)
Now, If you read all the way to here and asked yourself "But why does he find It fascinating?" Because the psychosis Is you. The psychosis is a form of self-defense mechanism for the brain to handle daily stress (Don't worry, It takes hell of a lot of stress and emotional trauma to develop It) but at the same time, It's a grey splotch on the brain which manages to fool the brain into thinking what isn't there is there. For example: Let us say I am thirsty, then to my right, I can see a glass of coke, I never poured it nor did I bring any, let alone have any coke but It Is still there. When I touch the glass, I can feel that the coke Is cold, when I drink it, I can taste the coke and feel how cold It Is, and that is fascinating. I have experienced events which would have made you shit your pants, I have seen scary figures which has only inspired me beasts to add to fantasy books, even stories!
Now, I don't remember the name of the game, but there Is a game In the making where mental illness Is the main focus of the game, many thought It was like a taboo subject and going too far, personally, I'm glad they are making It. Because I hope they can clear up that there ARE people with psychosis who can manage day to day affairs, like me. That we aren't dangerous as movies/tv shows make us (never taken offense to It, I myself quite enjoy them), I also hope that bullies will be interested in the game and buy it and the game shows them that the guy they are picking on, could develop psychosis and cease to bully the kid. The game Is a great opportunity to enlighten people about this subject.
Thank you for your attention.
PS: I have some stories to tell, but I decided to spare them, If anyone Is interested, just ask! I have no problem recounting the experience!