My heart...

The 5th season of The Wire is what I keep coming back to:

"Brother, when you were good, you were the best we had."

@aegon said:

:'(((((

Alex said this isn't a joke, but that can't be...I'm trying to stop myself from crying, but I don't think I can. This can't be.

Now I know what this was about...

Garry Whitta has posted something both joyful and heartbreaking:

https://vine.co/v/haiIlp9jxlU

Oh shit, I was not prepared for that vine video. FUCK. Tears in the office, this is not OK.

I expressed my grievance in the only way I could. I realize to the outsider this will appear insensitive and rude; but I assure you (and I know Ryan would understand) that this is truly out of love, and respect. I apologize for glare, it is afternoon here.

Today, I found out a great friend I never met has passed away.

@bassman2112: Thanks, man. That got a good laugh out of me. I think Ryan would've cracked up at the sticker.

Ive never been more sad about a persons passing I didn't know in all my life. I cant even begin to pretend to know what the bomb crew is feeling. Thats a huge whole that no man will ever be able to fill and my heart is breaking :(

I've got fucking tears in my eyes. God fucking dammit.

I'm really going to miss that duder.

I got tears in my eyes man. This is fucking crazy. 34 is too goddamn young for anyone.

Fuck, I don't know what to say. I've been listening to him for 4 years now, like others have mentioned it's this really weird thing where you've kinda come to know these guys despite not really knowing them.

Someone posted this on Gamespot, and I thought it seemed appropriate:

holy shit thats dark

I held my shit together, started teetering over the wedding photos, but the photo with Alexis did it.

I feel so fucking dumb for being this sad over someone I never met, but I guess that's what happens when someone's in your ear more often than your family.

I got nothing.

I am crushed. :'(

I'm man enough to admit I just teared up. I am legitimately fucking sad about this news. We should all remember to appreciate the friends we have. At any moment they could be gone.

Fuck.

i feel like i'm going to wake up at any moment and this will all be a bad dream.

@moab: Me too. It's just too unreal.

This is was the only tweet @EnemyNanner (Ryan's Wife) made on that day, at 6:42 pm. I know it may not be important how he died, but I can't help but try and look for more information to make sense out of all this.

https://twitter.com/EnemyNanner/status/352558011136475136

Qouted for all the truths.

Condolences to Davis and family from my side too!!!

I created my account just a few minutes ago, But I have lurked on this site for years on end. I never had much to say, But I always enjoyed lurking these forums and laughing non stop from the podcast and from the quick looks and the endurance runs that I have watched multiple times. But I had to create one now. Because this hurts more then I can explain. I never met him personally but I felt like I knew him. My heart is broken by this loss. Hell I'm on the verge of tears just writing up this small paragraph. I guess I just needed to post this to say goodbye to Ryan. I'm gonna miss ya duder.

This.