I really don't know why she is interested in me, but GOOD GRIEF she has a horrible taste in men considering that she is even looking my way. Every fucking time this romantic interest shit happens I refuse each and every time to participate in any shenanigan, because I don't want to get to know anybody who has a romantic interest in me. I'm serious when I say this, but anyone after me is fucking desperate.
Every time I see her working at this local gas station, she gets all sparkly eyed when she sees me. Every time my mother goes in there, the first thing that blurts out of her mouth is how am I doing? It's like she's trying to get into my moms good graces to get to me. I can spot what she's about from a mile off, and I even have legit proof though people who know her as to what she is looking for. My mother can even spot what she's about, and she don't even have to talk to anyone! I get bad feelings, and mom gets bad feelings when we're around her. This girl is looking for someone that she thinks has money or will make money in the future. She also wants someone that she can control, and someone who she can call her boy toy or young meat. She has indeed been around the block several times (I've met some of those people), and I've haven't even left or thought about opening the door and make it outside to even go around the block! In other words, she's not a virgin and been with several, and I'm still a virgin and plan to stay that way.
Sure it's a little flattering that someone is interested in me, but I don't really want or hold an interest in anyone else and take it further (neither do I want to). Sure I want a friend and nothing more, but she definitely isn't even that. I've had this happen more than once, and I was hoping that this shit wouldn't happen again... Guess I didn't get my wish.
Anyways, that concludes my story of current craziness!
I want to thank the ones who have taken some of their time to chat with me. I was stressed out with this situation, but now I'm over it. Talking it over did help me to come to the conclusion to just let her be nice, and say no to her when the time comes... because I really do not like her and I'm not looking for anyone. Also, I won't dwell on this, because all it's going to do is to eat me up from the inside. I cannot guarantee that this self-loathing or lack of confidence will stop, but it's a working progress as I am trying to think positive about things.
I've gotten a little mentally sick with the small and big tragedies that have happened to me within the past year, and it's really affected me to where I sometimes do not think before I act, much like what I've done here to express my concerns with this situation that I should have not shared here on the forums. I also really miss having a friend that I can always talk with without worrying about anything going anywhere. I'm really am sorry for getting you all involved, but for those who did talk with me, I just want you to know that ya'll did help. I give you my thanks. =-)
I would like this thread locked, as I think there is no further discussion value. I apologize for the trouble.