@crusader8463 said:
Sorry, but I find it rather ironic that a post about writing a book gets such a terribly written title.
Anyway, I don't have anything to be proud of. I have never done anything that I felt was worthy of note, but people around me keep telling me I do things I should be proud of. The most recent example of this happened at work a month back. I currently work at a job doing tech support for HTC smartphones and in my first month on the floor I jumped to being ranked #4 out of 80 or so other agents. All the supervisors kept coming up to me telling me how amazing that was and all of that, but I didn't do anything special to get it. I just did my job and never put in any effort beyond what was needed to do the job at hand. Which made me getting that high a rank kind of sad when you stop think about it.
It always comes off as false modesty to most people around me, but it's really just me having such a low self esteem that even if I found a cure for cancer tomorrow I would probably rationalize it in my head as not being an accomplishment to be proud of because I didn't do it sooner. Rather frustrating that my mind can always find some way to rationalize putting myself down.
That's really unfortunate man :/ I really hope you can resolve that because you deserve to be happy.
For me, I got on a plane and went to Beijing for 6 months to study Mandarin. Getting off the plane only knowing 'Ni Hao' I progressed through hard work and hours and hours of writing, reading and listening to destroying all my exams and being able to get around in China without too much trouble. Just really proud of the progress I made.
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