JackiJinx

This post relates to: Xbox 360

I can't seem to concentrate on anything right now. I'm having trouble understanding arrays, so I'm reading over that chapter in my textbook right now. I love this stuff, but it's just so hard to wrap my head around without some solid examples.

Christmas? Bekern made me think of what I want for Christmas. Maybe I can convince my family to get me a 360 for Christmas if they buy me nothing else. Maybe. Or maybe as a graduation gift this December? Who knows.

And just because I love Kids in the Hall:

I realize that I've been dwelling much too much on how crappy things are going for me lately, so I figured it was time for a change. Let the happy videos begin!

Yes, I realize that I have not been writing very many happy entries lately, but I can assure you this one should be the last depressing one for awhile (unless my bank account is truly fucked over). Worthwhile video at the end!

Here are the main reasons my life sucks: being alone, no friends, no money, crappy job.

Being Alone

This entails the whole break-up bit with my boyfriend of eight months last week. Well, it was mutual, and then I changed my mind, and he's very confused about things, or so he keeps insisting, and does not know what he wants to do relationship-wise. He claims to love me, I claim to love him, I'm yelling at him on the phone as to how I'm so miserable about my other problems and how I'm alone, he apologies, I apologize for being a bitch and tell him how much I miss him, he says the same, but we get no where and so end the conversation. I dig myself into a deeper hole.

No Friends

Pretty much all of my life, I've never been able to maintain a stable friendship with anyone, except one person: my best friend Leah. She called me out the other day saying that, "You know Jacki, you can be so incredibly mean sometimes," and consequently, not wanting to talk to me the rest of the day. Today, she bought me slippers and some chicken nuggets. She and my ex are the only people I really talk to. Really. Seriously. I'm ready to transfer, yet that's my core friend base. Yep.

No Money

This, one hundred percent not my fault. TuitionPay decided to take out my last payment to them twice. That's two $490.50 payments, for those that had no idea. My current bank account total? -$409.18. Not including overdraft fees--all of which happened last week when I had no idea my account was in the red--what would this look like? -$209.18. Not fucking kidding, and I am NOT going to overlook these fees, that's for certain. If I have to take TuitionPay to small claims court, I most certainly will. I barely make $120 a week as it is. Yes, I've contacted both the bank and TuitionPay about this and my bank faxed them the information they needed in order to refund the original $490.50 they took, or so I hope.

Crappy Job

I recently switched my routine to morning work, which could be worse. I don't have to get there on time, I don't have to interface with a lot of people, and I do a lot of cleaning. The bad part? I'm bored to tears. All I do is clean the bathroom, which doesn't get cleaned unless I'm on the job (no, I'm not kidding. The guy who's suppose to do it is beyond lazy, yet was promoted), clean the games, which I'm told I don't do a good enough job through someone else and I have no idea why (I clean every spot that I see), and on top of that, all everyone else does is socialize in the morning. Hardly anything actually gets done other than by me or the cash opening who absolutely needs to prep a bunch of things in the morning in order for the store to run. The other day, I was told to do her job until she came in and then do MY job on top of that before we opened. Sorry, and although I am capable of doing other jobs, I'm only getting paid for one at a time. I know I'm not exaggerating either because our morning manager recently just quit based upon other employees not only not listening to her, but our GM not doing anything about it (really dumb on his part considering the people she was complaining about he's actually planning on getting rid of...just that he's lazy about it).

Perhaps I need to just switch back to night shifts when I can worry about my own hide more or perhaps I do need a change of scene. Either way, not happy with my current work situation.

That's all for now folks. Tune in next time for the exciting conclusion to the money crisis of '08. In the meantime, enjoy this song and dance!

...so I went and bought some more figurines to add to my collection. I'll take a picture of them all some time.

I'm going to RIT to visit this Saturday. I don't think I'll have too much trouble getting in considering my grades and activity in community college and at work, but I just want to see if it's for me.

Cried a lot today. Not fun, as you can imagine. Got to the point where I was angry and I told my friend comforting me that I wanted to punch someone. At first, she suggested a pillow. Then she remembered that the family has a punching bag in the back, so she set me up in front of it and I punched the living crap out of my hands while she ordered me a pizza. I want to learn to box now =)

I'm going to annoying my friend Leah with Japanese language CDs on the five hour trip up to Rochester. Bwuhahaha!

And a video, just because I feel like it. Wanted to embed this, but disabled.

So if no one really sees me on or sees me on frequently or sees me posting incomprehensible stuff, you know the deal.

What a week this started out to be, and hey, it's election day today! It can only get better! =/

My mom gave me some weird advice, "Go date a lot of jerks and watch a lot of sad movies. Oh, and take your vitamins."
She's been through this before, yadayadayda, and doesn't want me to be depressed for two years doing nothing like she did.

I guess I should get to my next class or something...