I had talked to Patrick yesterday about pushing the show back so he could get a little rest after GOTY discussions, but so far haven't heard anything from him this morning. I think it's probably safe to say we're cancelling today's show, but we'll definitely be back on Monday.
I genuinely hope this is just you venting and not a definitive decision you've already made. There is help out there that can be effective, and my hope is that you have people around you that you can talk to in a crisis situation. If not, the hotline numbers posted by others in this thread could be of great help to you. And if you just need another duder to talk to who's had these kinds of feelings before, you can always shoot me a PM. I've been there, believe me.
For those posting in this thread, know that I am doing what I can to try and track our friend down here in hopes of checking in on him more directly. If anyone here knows him personally and can get in touch with him, please let me know. Thank you.