You've a way with words, Patrick, and the way you share about these feelings is heartfelt. Thank you, we're here with you.
Ironically, despite the glee and warmth of the summer, I've come to associate it with loss of a loved one as well. Celebration of midsummer is an important, and normally cheerful, family holiday for us here, but three years ago on the eve of summer solstice my gramps passed away, making it a bittersweet occasion for me. Still, I've come to realize that we should rejoice for the good times we had together in remembrance and smile on, as I'm sure that's what they would most like us to do. I don't want to remember the half asleep body my gramps was during his last days, I will remember him giving me a hearty smile and thumbs up the last time I visited him while he was conscious.
My sympathies to you, whole GB crew, and everyone who has lost someone they truly care about.