I have severe anxiety and tend to get major depression. This makes it tough for me to go and be productive in life. I got my associate's degree in IT from an online school which I am currently seeing as a waste of time. I am massively in debt because of going to this school and I cannot get hired because I have no job experience. Even if I were to get hired somewhere, I worry if I would even be able to go since it is hard for me to be social. My anxiety is bad enough that I get nervous just posting something on the net (whether it is here or somewhere else).
I tried taking medication for my anxiety but I suffered from some severe side effects and I refuse to try anything else. While I have been making strides on it getting better on my own, it is something I still struggle with. None of this would be too big of an issue if I was still by myself but I am not; I have a girlfriend and we have a baby with another on the way. I know that I need to provide for them (which is the reason I went into college in the first place) but all of my problems has made it very difficult. I also tend to have a lot of thoughts on things not working out with my girlfriend because of my lack of getting a job and anxiety which further irritates my problems.
So, yeah, those are some of my main big secret(s) and what I am comfortable enough to divulge. Depression, anxiety, and seeing everything as a waste. Apologies if this is hard to read but this whole thing was a big train of thought.