Here's a question for those of you who have progressed through this: how does one go about finding an effective therapist for social anxiety counseling? I've encountered the boilerplate "how depressed and anxious are you on a 1-6 scale" quiz too many times to be confident I'm seeing the right people. But then, it may also be a case of not ever sticking with a single person for any length of time. There's a list of local therapists almost perpetually open in another tab, but the only deciding factor I've used so far is financial limitations.
"Instead of COLLECTING my life's experiences and acquaintances into a ladder that promotes and elevates me socially into a more experienced young man every day, with friendships growing stronger, I enjoy these brief experiences separately until they fade away, and then I wonder where the fuck they went."
Almost everyone experiences this. Ever heard the old adage: "you're lucky if you have one true friend in your entire life"? People and friendships change constantly, it's really rare to be friends with someone for your entire life, no matter how good your relationship is.
There's a difference between the natural separation caused by time and distance and a total collapse that happens because one or both sides couldn't commit themselves fully.