I have anxiety, aka I always feel anxious. I always feel stressed, always. Is it because of the guilt? Probably. Is it because I chemically imbalanced? Maybe. I do take pills for it and my depression, but here I am sad and anxious. It is not nice to always have to deal with the pressure bearing down on me. It is very hard to be calm and relaxed. very hard to be happy and okay. Is it loneliness?  Maybe. Would I still feel this way even if I was with someone? Most likely.  
 
I sit on the precipice of darkness, the void of despair, and the cliff of madness. 
 
It is not that hard to fall in.