The lack of audience thing can definitely be very depressing, but dude, you wrote two novels. Seeing as how both meet your personal standards (which seem pretty high) they can, at the very least, be looked at as valuable lessons that have undoubtedly made you a better writer. If nothing more, you can look at them as practice, not a waste of time. I'm 22 and have started many failed projects (especially during my teen years) that were never finished because they were either too ambitious for my skill level or I didn't have enough research and experience with the subject matter. I look back at these abortions sometimes and laugh at them. I find that doing so gives me a bit of a confidence boost and shows how I've managed to improve over the last few years. It took me way longer than it should've to realize that you gotta write not only what you're passionate about, but what you know inside and out.
You really shouldn't beat yourself up about the Amazon numbers either. That market is so saturated that it's incredibly difficult to get noticed through it even if you have a great story. The same thing happens to bands on bandcamp or producers on beatport or short filmmakers on Youtube. If it's your passion, keep at it, even if the thought of failure can be depressing as all Hell.
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