14 hours later and I still can't believe it. Every time I read another eulogy by one of Ryan's many friends, I can't help but have this creeping feeling in the back of my head screaming that this is just another very elaborate joke Ryan concocted. I'm caught in this loop of denial- "Ryan can't be gone!"
One can only hope to leave such lasting impressions on this many people from all around the globe like Ryan has. He was- IS- a great man, and he has lived no doubt a fulfilling life. He has left a hole, a void in the gaming community, and his absence will be felt for years to come.
I hope that his end was quick and painless.
Even now, as I'm typing this, a part of me still refuses to accept this. Goddamn it. Goddamn it all.