I grabbed one. Also, anecdotaly I work at a best buy and we sold our launch shipment day of. We got a second shipment the following day which we sold through that day too. The whole state has been sold out since then.
As somebody who has struggled with depression since I was 13 and am currently going after my degree in psychology I'd highly recommend you get some help. You can ignore it, you can medicate with drugs and alcohol, but it isn't going to get better, it's most likely going to get worse (I'm not only speaking from studies and anecdotal knowledge, but firsthand here as well). Ironically, even though my depression and the history of depression and suicides in my family has led me down a psychology career path I also have found it difficult to get myself into treatment as well. In the end though, even if I haven't found a medication that works for me I find the experience of talking to a professional about it does really help. You can't internalize something like this without imploding down the line. At the very least find a family member or a close friend that you're comfortable talking to about this stuff. You obviously want to be helped and are showing a need to communicate about your experience; and while it's awesome that you feel comfortable talking about it via this community, you should really be doing it in person face to face with somebody as well.
At some point definitely find a professional though. No matter how much empathy and understanding people in your life may have they also aren't trained to handle treating an illness. And remember, it is an illness. I'm sure you went to a doctor to help treat your STI, there's no reason you shouldn't be going to a doctor to treat this as well.