@trueheresy: I can relate to a lot of your post, being both a Psych student and someone who has lived with depression for about ten years now. There are a lot of misconceptions about OCD, depression, anxiety, autism, and other issues experienced by either me or some of my friends, and at some point, I will make a post detailing the differences between what people have misunderstood the problem to be, and what the reality of the situation is. (I.E. OCD isn't just "I can tell when things have not been done consistently," and depression isn't just "Someone close to me passed away, so I'm kind of sad right now." Although grief as its own separate thing is apparently listed in the DSM-V, the current guidebook to diagnosing disorders, which is...really weird.)
Depression and anxiety are displayed in my gaming habits in two ways:
- Apologizing a lot to teammates when I mess up, or when I suspect I've messed up.
- Avoiding "hard" games for the most part. I worry that I'm bad even at simple things, or things most people find ridiculously easy, so I've never even considered playing Dark Souls, or games of that nature. I suspect I'm putting too much pressure on myself, and I don't notice that other people mess up on the same things I mess up on, just as much as I do.
Sometimes, identifying the problem is the first step to accepting that you have one. Good luck.