Ever feel Truman-ed?
By MistaSparkle 21 Comments
(*Standard Blog Disclaimer: These are opinions. You don't have to read it. Especially if you hate hearing stupid shit.)
So, no doubt everyone here has watched The Truman Show, right? Yea, sure. Okay then let's get started:
Sometimes I feel like my life is The Truman Show. I mean, except my name's Kevin, so The Kevin Show really. I can't be the only one though. Everybody has had to have experienced this feeling at one point. We agree. Okay, but here's my problem. You gotta stop. How do I know everyone isn't watching me, as I type, and just agreeing with anything that will get me feeling as though EVERYTHING IS ONLY A COINCIDENCE. Sounds crazy, huh? Yep. But that only means what everyone else is saying to me is working. They get me to believe my every move is not being monitored. But there's a chance that they are. All of them! Every move. Hold on...
(Enter. New paragrapgh, same topic.)
I don't think of this all the time. Just when you provoke me. Who's "you"? Everyone that's who. Let's say I'm listening to this song I haven't heard in a while on my computer. Let's say this song is Come On Eileen. Sure, its a good song-great song-great song, but most kids my age wouldn't be too into it. Or at least not admit it. Yet, as I walk across the amphitheater at my school during lunch I hear it being played on the speakers. The DJ may just like the song, but really is he just hinting at me? Practically teasing me because he knows its bugging me. He knows its forcing these thoughts into my head and getting me thinking. He knows, she knows, they all know! Every goddamn asshole sitting on the grass knows. You don't think they're assholes. No, you're right. But it helps me to make this seem like it might be an obscure rant in a kinky, European, torture-porn movie someday. Anyways, getting back to the point, everyone is in on this fucking joke. Well, let me tell you! I'm in on the joke! But this means NOTHING because you all know two seconds later I will second guess myself. There! Right now. Just did it. And then again. And again. But you probably don't believe me huh? Or you do but can't say you can. I don't know anymore. Let's press "Enter".
I like to dance when nobody's watching. Simple fact. A bit misconstrued, however, because people ARE watching. Sometimes I'll dance anyways. Sometimes. But it will almost always be followed by me giving the finger to every corner of the room while saying "Yeah. I know you're watching." I act like I know and maybe I do. I don't think you know what the hell you're talking about. Maybe not...Maybe not. Once again, "Enter."
So, maybe you're wondering what me writing this means. No, not really. Nothing I suppose, since the second guess will come soon. Now! But it helps me to let myself interact with the viewers. Maybe me doing this will act the same as you trying to make me think something is coincidence. You thinking about it? Kinda, but defintiely not as hard as you, apparently. Oh well. Anyways, that tuckered me out a bit, so I'll stop for now. Stopping writing that is. Stopping the thoughts, well that's... that's impossible.
I'm not crazy. Just camera shy. :)