By Mushir 153 Comments
I finally told my mother that I no longer believe in God.
This may not seem like a big deal to a lot of you, but for me it was huge. My whole life I was brought up as a Muslim. My mother is extremely religious and my father is as well, but he didn't really ever teach me anything about it. Even though we moved from India to Norway almost 16 years ago, we always kept our Islamic traditions and tried to follow all the rules that we could.
A year and a half ago my older brother said to my mom that he is having doubts about his religion. A few months past and he eventually became an Atheist. This was a huge psychological blow to my mother who had always been such a religious women. I had honestly not thought much about my religion before this and just blindly did what my parents had taught me. After what my brother did I started thinking more and more about religion as well. I started having doubts. And while I still believe that Islam has taught me a lot of good things, I just could not believe in a lot of the things that it says. I told my mother this and said that the only reason I do anything religious is because I love her, not God or the religion. She told me that she didn't want me to do that for her, and said that I should just stop if that's the only reason I do anything related to Islam. And so I did.
I feel like I've done the right thing, but constant guilt I feel from seeing my mother in pain because of me is really tough. I love her and she's honestly the best mother I could ever ask for, but I just can't believe in a religion just because of her.
Most of you probably don't really care about this, but I just needed to write and share my thoughts. Has anyone else gone through something like this? If so, how did you handle the situation?