By Rawrnosaurous 1 Comments
The persona games hold a very special place in my heart. I had never played one before persona 3 was released and even then I rented it from Gamefly when FES was released. I can't quite remember why I first decided to give this game a try but I suppose it doesn't really matter anymore. After several sleep deprived nights of playing away at the game ( and still just barely scratching the surface of it ) I started bursting at the seams talking about the game to my best friend. We were very close to the point of basically being family but not by blood. It got to the point where we would spend weekends playing through this game on my ps2. Discussing the game constantly and becoming avid fans of the series that we had only just become aware of. After months of playing the game and replaying the game it became our go to game to play during the weekends. That and Gears of War 2 when it first came out as I couldn't beat one of the first missions on my own and had to bring him into co-op to help. I haven't played a persona game in coming on a year now, sadly he passed away in a car accident last september. The persona series will always be that series that reminds me more than anything of him and the vast amounts of weekends that we spent playing the game whenever college didn't demand our attention. Yet, I still haven't been able to find a copy of Persona 3 to keep at my place to play in his memory. The persona series has since become something that is more than just a video game to play to cure my current boredom, It's become one of the very few ways I can still feel a strong connection to him even though he is gone. I haven't been able to find a copy for me to purchase sadly, even the copies of it for sale on amazon are ridiculously expensive. I have kept everything that I possibly could of his or what reminds me of him. Yes, I refuse to delete his game profile he created on my 360 hard drive (cogelitecarmine) I refuse to get rid of the converse that I have had since highschool because of the fact that he wrote on them a week after I met him. I don't think i'll ever get rid of the picture he drew of captain douchebag, aside from being simply marvelous it's something that we drew in math class bored out of our respective minds. It's such a horrible feeling to lose someone that meant so much to you, to know that all the plans we had made were never going to come to fruition. All the talks of getting out of Ohio and just driving non-stop to California because aside from him knowing how much that state means to me, we really wanted an apartment out there to work on videogames to set up something that would stand the test of time.
I've never had the luxury of staying in one place for very long, my military upbringing meant we were always leaving for a new base, a new state, a new country. I've never been in one place for more than six years at a time. Getting stuck here in Ohio to spend my senior year in high school felt horrid to me, to think that after spending my high school years with a consistent group of friends and then having to leave just before my last year. Starting to go into college to find that he was in each and every single one of my classes, spending all our time playing video games or drawing for school. Spending countless hours on countless weekends trudging through Persona 3 and playing Gears of War 2 and Left 4 Dead. Hopefully I'll find a persona 3 FES game that I'll be able to keep with me just to remember the good times we had together.