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#1 Edited by runnah555 (148 posts) -

I created another human. That has to count for something.

Not a bad track, feels like a few genres mixed in. I am more of a viking/castle and dragon/melodic metal fan myself. But you say trio? Must have done a bit of studio work to accomplish this.

#2 Posted by runnah555 (148 posts) -

Watch, then pretend to like it to fit in with all your friends who like it. Then feel bad about your lack of individualism .

#3 Posted by runnah555 (148 posts) -

I am shocked that enough people's balls have dropped on this forum to allow for facial hair growth. Bravo.

#4 Posted by runnah555 (148 posts) -

I want to say "because anime is terrible and it's the universe's way of telling you this", but I won't because I am a better person than that.

I would hazard a guess and say it's rights related.

#5 Posted by runnah555 (148 posts) -

@Alexandru said:

Before I start, i wanna say that I am fully aware that many of you will ridicule me, and that it's entirelly possible that this thread may be banned. I am taking my chances tho.

Long story short, I was fat all my teenage years and retreated indoors. I was almost never bullied, but I was ignored by people, so I came to hate them(and I was very shy). I basically just stay at home all day and play games.

A few months ago I started losing weight so i will boost my confidence and looks a bit to get a job, which I did. I work in web design for over a month now, and it's working good.

The weird thing is that even if I have enough courage to speak to people more now because I look better and have a job, I tend to not want to do that. I am obviously still a bit quiet, but no where near as much as before.

In a way this does make me miserable because I am always alone and have no friends, but at the same time I would hate myself if I changed that.

And that is because I've been like this all my life and started hating happy people that go out and have lives, etc (I know I am being an asshole for thinking that, but that's just how I feel).

And if I was to go out and have a life, then I would become just like them, which is the thing I hate the most.

This is what makes me keep wanting to be this way. It's weird because I know I will never be happy, but at the same time, I feel that if I change, then I might aswell die, since the person I would become won't be me.

The reason why i am asking this question now, is that since I have this job and started talking more (before everyone could tell something is wrong with me, but now I am incognito). I am constantly seeing myself having to push people away since they will never give up on wanting to go places and **** like that.

I was pretty mean to a girl the other day because she kept inviting me for lunch and I kept putting it off and at yesterday I just snapped at her and told her to go to hell.

So i guess my question is, did any of you ever felt this way? Not necesarely about my problem (im pretty sure I am just a rare occuring fuckup).

No, but then again I am not a sociopath.

#6 Posted by runnah555 (148 posts) -

The complete Blind Guardian discography.

#7 Posted by runnah555 (148 posts) -

Well just goes to show that you can be successful and still be stark raving mad.

#8 Posted by runnah555 (148 posts) -

@Grimmrobe:

No I remember there were only a couple of them a short one and a tall one.

#9 Posted by runnah555 (148 posts) -

I like that one but I can't remember the title. It was about robots I think and there was some shooting and I remember a scene in the desert.

Any help?

#10 Posted by runnah555 (148 posts) -

Stop being a puss. Big cities are awesome. Sure you might get stabbed once, but hey it's worth it to actually be near things.