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I created another human. That has to count for something.

Not a bad track, feels like a few genres mixed in. I am more of a viking/castle and dragon/melodic metal fan myself. But you say trio? Must have done a bit of studio work to accomplish this.

Watch, then pretend to like it to fit in with all your friends who like it. Then feel bad about your lack of individualism .

I am shocked that enough people's balls have dropped on this forum to allow for facial hair growth. Bravo.

I want to say "because anime is terrible and it's the universe's way of telling you this", but I won't because I am a better person than that.

I would hazard a guess and say it's rights related.

@Alexandru said:

Before I start, i wanna say that I am fully aware that many of you will ridicule me, and that it's entirelly possible that this thread may be banned. I am taking my chances tho.

Long story short, I was fat all my teenage years and retreated indoors. I was almost never bullied, but I was ignored by people, so I came to hate them(and I was very shy). I basically just stay at home all day and play games.

A few months ago I started losing weight so i will boost my confidence and looks a bit to get a job, which I did. I work in web design for over a month now, and it's working good.

The weird thing is that even if I have enough courage to speak to people more now because I look better and have a job, I tend to not want to do that. I am obviously still a bit quiet, but no where near as much as before.

In a way this does make me miserable because I am always alone and have no friends, but at the same time I would hate myself if I changed that.

And that is because I've been like this all my life and started hating happy people that go out and have lives, etc (I know I am being an asshole for thinking that, but that's just how I feel).

And if I was to go out and have a life, then I would become just like them, which is the thing I hate the most.

This is what makes me keep wanting to be this way. It's weird because I know I will never be happy, but at the same time, I feel that if I change, then I might aswell die, since the person I would become won't be me.

The reason why i am asking this question now, is that since I have this job and started talking more (before everyone could tell something is wrong with me, but now I am incognito). I am constantly seeing myself having to push people away since they will never give up on wanting to go places and **** like that.

I was pretty mean to a girl the other day because she kept inviting me for lunch and I kept putting it off and at yesterday I just snapped at her and told her to go to hell.

So i guess my question is, did any of you ever felt this way? Not necesarely about my problem (im pretty sure I am just a rare occuring fuckup).

No, but then again I am not a sociopath.

The complete Blind Guardian discography.

Well just goes to show that you can be successful and still be stark raving mad.

@Grimmrobe:

No I remember there were only a couple of them a short one and a tall one.

I like that one but I can't remember the title. It was about robots I think and there was some shooting and I remember a scene in the desert.

Any help?

Stop being a puss. Big cities are awesome. Sure you might get stabbed once, but hey it's worth it to actually be near things.