Wow this thread brings the feels for me. Kind of scary to think where I was mentally. As an update for anyone who cares, I've been driving for over a year now (initially wrote that as drinking ..Freudian slip??) and no issues at all. I've been doing a more customer service job at my work and I honestly just hate it. In less than a month though I will start a new position with the company as they're going through some big changes. I'm hoping that's the change in work stuff that I'll need to break up the feeling of doing the same thing over and over. Overall though I'm apathetic. It's not something I want to do for the rest of my life and this is where the big issue starts for me. While I'm still a virgin (29 now so 1 more year until wizard status) I honestly don't even think about girls at all. I just feel lost from having a "thing". Not a gimmick but some passion that I can work on or some crap like that.
I gave up on a couple of YouTube channels and have just settled on my own personal vlogging type one where I've been trying to incorporate video game stuff but not really turn it into a gaming channel per se. I'm very influenced by Giant Bombs personality based "stuff" and that's what I some day hope to achieve. But that is a far off thing if ever and sometimes hard to even imagine and sometimes I even wonder ...what the hell am I doing? Something like that.
Need to go take a walk and breathe a little after looking at the stuff I wrote in here. Hope you duders are doing well.