Epiphany Essay

Paper I wrote for an english class. 

  

 Epiphany

 

When a person has epiphany, they realize something and it changes them forever.   In the movie “The Fisher King”, the character Jack has an epiphany when he realizes he must help Parry for Parry, not for himself.   So he gets the “Holy Grail” not for himself but for someone else that he feels life that he had a negative effect on.   I personally experienced an epiphany when my grandmother died and my grandfather moved in with me and my family.   It made me realize that emotional connections people have are so strong that it can make some people have mental disorders and fall into a deep depression.  

            When my grandmother died a couple years ago, my grandfather was alone after a 60 year marriage with her.   He was unable to take care of himself and he was forced into moving in with us.   My parents made accommodations for him to help through one of the hardest times of his life.   I realized that, when you have an emotional connection with someone as strong as they had, when it is ended in someway, it has a profound effect on the way you view the world and the other relationships you have with people. When she died he started out with a deep depression, threatening to kill himself, and even going as far as preparing a spot for his suicide to happen.   The family got him through that and he saw that he needs to be her for his six children and many grandchildren.   As his illness progressed, it moved into dementia.   He had thought my grandmother was cheating on him, that she never wanted to be with him, and it went as far as him accusing me of stealing his pills.   At one point when he was in the hospital, he was convinced that my father was on the upper of level of the hospital having his leg amputated.   No one could convince him otherwise.   After a year of going through this situation, we thought it would be better for him to live an assisted living facility; he now is doing much better, which made the decision much easier and let my family members not have that huge stress in our already stressful household.

            This whole period of time changed me.   I realized the importance of relationships in my life.   It made me realize that connections that you build up with people are some of the most important things in this life.   This whole situation makes me weary of relationships I create with people.   I am friends with very few people, and I usually keep to myself, especially at school.   Until my grandmother died I was trying to make friends with everyone and trying to make myself be the “Cool” person who knew everyone and that people were friends with.   I know realize that having a few very close friends is more important to me that knowing a whole bunch of people and I don’t have to do things that please people just so I am liked.   The whole situation made me realize how important relationships with people are.   I also became a less selfish person; I realize the sacrifices that people make for the important people in their lives.   My parents spent money making a room for him; they spent time taking him to doctor’s appointments and other things, and also spent time away from each other to care for this person.

            In the movie “The Fisher King”, when Jack has an epiphany it changes the way he thinks and views everything.   He went from only caring about himself, and doing things for himself, such as giving Parry money.   He was also thinking about himself when he tried to get Parry with Lydia.   He only wanted to do these things for Parry because he thought if Parry felt better; it would make himself feel better.   Then after Parry went into the coma at the end of the movie, he went and got the “Holy Grail” for Parry, not himself.   This ties in with me because after the epiphany I had, I realized that I should not be so concerned with how the whole situation affects me, but how it affects him.   When he first moved in I thought that the whole thing was not going to be fun.   I was thinking about myself and how it affects me.   I wasn’t even thinking about how he felt or how much time my parents had to sacrifice to keep him at our house and try to keep him happy.   I now have this great appreciation for how relationships affect the way people behave and act.   It makes me less selfish and that I should do things for other people for them, not to make myself feel better about my life.

            In the essay “Apology to Stephanie Stephenson”, he realizes that he made fun of this girl that was in one of his elementary classes.   He joined in with the other kids because he wanted to become the popular kid.   He was using her for his own selfish reasons.   It relates to me because before this whole epiphany happened was pretty selfish myself.   After this I have a greater appreciation for what my parents do for me.   Later this year they are going to help me pay for college which will require some financial sacrifices on their part.   My parents did many things for my grandfather to get him through this difficult time, epically my mother.   While my Dad is working she would be on the phone all the time trying to organize appointments for him and get him the proper medication, and he wasn’t even her father.   It should me how important relationships are and how people do anything for the people they care about.   It shows me that I need to do things for other people and not myself.   I now help my parents do whatever is needed and don’t complain about, they deserve all the help they can get.

            I was thinking in a Machiavellian way.   The ends justify the means (you will do whatever you have to do to get what you want).   I didn’t care about what my parents had to do to get what I wanted.   I just wanted them to do it and didn’t really respect the sacrifices they had to make to give me and my siblings what we needed and wanted.   I would be lazy and sit in my room and expect things to be done for me.   I now try to spend more time with my parents and I am now taking care of things myself such as getting all my college business organized without their help.   I see that I need to do things for myself if I expect to be a successful adult.   My parents need to focus on the things that need to be done for themselves, and I need to do things for myself because I am perfectly capable of it.

            I also think I was going down Elliot’s theory of the “Downward Spiral”.   I wasn’t doing things for myself, my parents did a lot of things for me, and I think in the overall picture hurt my development.   I understand the fact that they wanted to help me as much as possible, but they should have forced me to do things by myself.   If they would have kept going on like this I would have never known how to do anything by myself and I would have always been dependent on someone else.    That’s why I think this epiphany is so important to me and my life.   It really gave me a view on how I need to behave, and the things that I need to do so I can function as an adult.   A person can not be babied and carried through their whole life.   You can’t be a selfish person and expect things to be done for you by your parents.  

            If you think in the ways of Socrates to serve the common good, my parents were doing that by helping my grandfather.   It shows me that the relationship you have with people makes you want to help them and serve the common good.   It’s a cycle, you grow up, your parents get old, when they are old and crippled and not in a condition to help themselves, you serve them.   You have to help them get through whatever is happening to them.   Selfishness goes along with this.   It shows me when my parents are older I can’t be selfish and only think about how helping them will effect my life.   They helped me growing up, it’s time to help them for them, and I don’t want to help them for myself.   I am going to help them because they deserve it for all the things that I, and other people have put them through.

            Overall, my grandmother dying and grandfather moving in with my family was one of the most important events that have happened in my life.   I did not realize it at the time he was living with us.   But after, when I thought about it, it was one of the most profound moments of my life.   It showed me not to be selfish, and it showed me the importances of relationships that people create with each other are.  

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My problem with Gamestop

So today, I said to myself, "Wow, I really want Gears 2."  So I rounded up most of my old Gamecube Games as well as a few 360 games.  This is what games I brought in and how much I recived for each one.  I had a total of 18 games, 5 360 games, 15 Gamecube games.  The grand total ended up being $64.93. just enough to get gears.  After I made my purchase he handed me a receipt which had all the games I traded in and how much I got for each one.  Let's just say I was a little pissed after I saw this receipt.  I know it's old, but 2.60 for Kameo? And I only got 3.90 for Mass Effect, yet I get 9.10 for NFS: Most Wanted?

Silly Gamestoper.
How does that work out?  I also got 36 cents for Tak and the power of juju.  I know that's an old game, and it's not very good, but still, I couldn't even get 1 dollar for it when they are going to try to sell it for 10?  The whole system seems flawed to me.  I'm sure most of you know about this, but I had really never gone to trade in games before.  I mean, it was probably worth it, all these games are games I'm never going to touch again, I might as well get something out of them.  I'm pretty that's how Gamestop can do that.  They know that people know that they are the only place they can go trade games in, so Gamestop just makes it retardedly unreasonable. Oh well, I got my copy of gears 2 which is amazing from what I have played so far.


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Upcoming things.

Rock band 2 ah!!!!! can't wait....I really have not been this excited for a game for a while now, I am really looking forward to it.

Fable 2, another one I can not wait for.
WoTLK- coming november 4th?
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Next weekend me and a few of my friends are going to chicago, about a 3 hour drive from where I live, to go to the Q101.1 block party at devry university.  We are mainly going so we can see avenged sevenfold and mindless self induldgence, but there is 10 main stages with a whole bunch of bands playing, so it should be fun....anyone else going by chance?
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Bah, school.

First day of my Junior year of high school starts tomorrow.
I got....
1st hour- Anatomy
2nd hour- English
3rd hour- Marching Band
4th hour- Music Theory
5th hour- Geometry

That's my 1st trimester...pretty boring except music theory, which is a class I have taken before and really enjoyed it, but this year it's a different teacher, as well as my marching band teacher.  Sleeping in untill 11:30 to noon isn't going to happen anymore....oh well...

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Rock Band 2 VS. Guitar Hero: World Tour.

Rock Band 2:

Game Modes:
Solo tours for all instruments.
                           Rock Band world tour.  Now with XBL, you can play world tour with people across the internet.
                           All the same Multi-player games.  Also "Battle of the bands"  Two bands can compete in various ways.
                           A drum trainer to teach you how to be better at the drums, also a freeplay mode to play however you want along to any of the songs.
                           A new, "No fail mode" Basically practice mode for everyone, if  one person keeps failing your band, jump over to here so you can keep going no matter what.
                           Hyper speed mode.
Setlist:


  • Norman Greenbaum "Spirit in the Sky"
  • The Who "Pinball Wizard"

1970's

  • AC/DC "Let There Be Rock"
  • Allman Brothers Band "Ramblin' Man"
  • Bad Company "Shooting Star"
  • Blondie "One Way or Another"
  • Bob Dylan "Tangled Up in Blue"
  • Cheap Trick "Hello There
  • Devo "Uncontrollable Urge"
  • Elvis Costello "Pump it Up"
  • Fleetwood Mac "Go Your Own Way"
  • The Guess Who "American Woman"
  • Jethro Tull "Aqualung"
  • Journey "Any Way You Want It"
  • Kansas "Carry on Wayward Son"
  • Rush "The Trees"
  • Squeeze "Cool for Cats"
  • Steely Dan "Bodhitsattva"
  • Steve Miller Band "Rock'n Me"
  • Talking Heads "Pyscho Killer"

1980's

  • Bill Idol "White Wedding Pt. 1"
  • Bon Jovi "Livin' on a Prayer"
  • Duran Duran "Hungry Like the Wolf"
  • The Go-Go's "We Got the Beat"
  • Greatful Dead "Alabama Getaway"
  • Jane's Addiction "Moutain Song"
  • Joan Jett "Bad Reputation"
  • Megadeth "Peace Sells"
  • Metallica "Battery"
  • Motorhead "Ace of Spades"
  • Ratt "Round and Round"
  • The Replacements "Alex Chilton"
  • Sonic Youth "Tennage Riot"
  • Survivor "Eye of the Tiger"

1990's

  • Alanis Morissette "You Oughta Know"
  • Alice in Chains "Man in the Box"
  • Beastie Boys "So Whatcha Want"
  • Bikini Kill "Rebel Girl"
  • Dinosaur Jr. "Feel the Pain"
  • Foo Fighters "Everlong"
  • Judas Priest "Painkiller"
  • L7 "Pretend We're Dead"
  • Lit "My Own Worst Enemy"
  • Lush "De-Luxe
  • Mighty Mighty Bosstones "Where'd You Go"
  • The Muffs "Kids in America"
  • Nirvana "Drain You"
  • The Offspring "Come Out & Play (Keep 'em Separated)"
  • Pearl Jam "Alive"
  • Presidents of the USA "Lump"
  • Rage Aganist the Machine "Testify"
  • Red Hot Chili Peppers "Give it Away'
  • Smashing Pumpkins "Today"
  • Social Distortion "I Was Wrong"
  • Soundgarden "Spoonman"
  • Testament "Souls of Black"

2000's

  • AFI "Girl's Not Grey"
  • Avenged Sevefold "Almost Easy"
  • Beck "E-Pro"
  • Disturbed "Down With the Sickness"
  • The Donnas "New Kid in School"
  • Dream Theater "Panic Attack"
  • Guns N' Roses "Shackler's Revenge"
  • Interpol "PDA"
  • Jimmy Eat World "The Middle"
  • Lacuna Coil "Our Truth"
  • Linkin Park "One Step Closer"
  • Mastodon "Colony of Birchmen"
  • Modest Mouse "Float On"
  • Panic at the Disco "Nine in the Afternoon"
  • Paramore "That's What You Get"
  • Rise Against "Give it All"
  • Silversun Pickups "Lazy Eye"
  • System of a Down "Chop Suey"
  • Tenacious D "Master Exploder"

Bonus Songs

  • Abnormality "Visions"
  • Anarchy Club "Get Clean"
  • Bang Camaro "Night Lies"
  • Breaking Wheel "Shoulder to the Plow"
  • Libyans "Welcome to the Neighborhood"
  • The Main Drag "A Jagged Gorgeous WInter"
  • Speck "Convetional Lover"
  • The Sterns "Surpreme Girl"
  • That Handsome Devil "Rob the Prez-O-Dent"

Those are the 84 songs that come on the disc, plus you can transfer all of your DLC and Rock Band 1 disc songs to Rock Band 2.

Hardware:

Microphone-Not sure about this, but pretty sure the exact same microphone as Rock Band 1. 
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Drums- The Rock Band 1 drum set is compatible, but there will be a premium Rock Band drum kit for 300$.
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Guitar- Pretty much the same thing, just different color.
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Guitar Hero: World Tour

Not alot has been released about the game yet.  But there is some things.

There will be the Band career mode as well as solo careers for each instrument.
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Multi-player modes.
An open strum has been added to the bass parts to make it more interesting.
Easy rhythm difficulty mode for the smaller kids.
Song creation mode.



Confirmed Songs:


Jimi Hendrix - "Purple Haze (Live)" and "The Wind Cries Mary"
Van Halen - "Hot for Teacher"
Foo Fighters  - "Everlong"
Billy Idol - "Rebel Yell"
Sublime - "Santeria"

Confirmed Bands:


The Doors
Smashing Pumpkins
Korn
System of a Down
Ozzy Osbourne
Interpol
Muse
The Eagles
Linkin Park
Dream Theater

Rumored Songs

and Bands not Confirmed (but with some evidence to suggest their presents):

Ted Nugent - "Stranglehold"
Blink 182 - "Dammit"
Paramore - "Misery Business"
Lenny Kravitz - "Go My Way"
Beastie Boys - "No Sleep Till Brooklyn"
The Answer - "Never Too Late"
Flo Rida - "Low" (Travis Barker Drum Cover)
Buckethead
Tool


Those are the only known songs at the moment.

Hardware:
Microphone- Most likely to be exactly like the Rock Band microphone
Drums- A different take and style of the Rock Band drums, also with a sensitivity sensor, some notes will be needed to be played louder or softer than usual.
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Guitar- No info on guitar, but will for sure be more "guitar hero" style than "Rock Band" style.





Overall, Rock Band just seems like a better game...we may not know everything about world tour yet, but rock band just looks and seems better.  You will all ways be able to get tons of DLC everyweek, after you transfer your rock band 1 songs and DLC , and as you keep buying songs, your library could fill up to be 300 songs in one game! Just so much to do in the Rock Band tour.  Guitar hero just seems like Guitar hero with a microphone and drums, nothing really speacial, I think rock band really brings something more to the table than guitar hero. 



Winner in my opinion would have to be...Rock Band 2.





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Games I'm most excited for. [updated with videos]

This is is in no particular order. I tried getting videos in here but the whole HTML thing doesn't seem to work, I'll try adding them in later.

1. Warhammer Online: Age of Reckoning
I am very excited for this game because I really want something else besides World of Warcraft, Warcraft is fun and all, but it takes up way to much time.  You have to schedule things around raid times if you actually want to gear up, then those raids can sometimes take up to 5-7 hours, sometimes more.  With this it's all based on PvP or their term RvR which is Realm vs. Realm.  The release date for this is September 23rd.

  


2. Wold of Warcraft: Wrath of the Lich King
This is another one that I am really excited for, even though I am going to play warhammer.  I am really looking forward to the new proffesion, and especially the death knights.  My servers seems to be low on tanks so death knights should fix that problem. No release date for this yet.
  


3. Gears of War 2
Really not much to say about this except it's more gears, and bigger and more badass. Really looking forward to this one as well.  Release date for this is November 2nd.
  


4. Banjo-Kazooie: Nuts and Bolts
Banjo-kazooie and Banjo-Tooie were 2 of my favorite games of all time.  I have been waiting a long time for third one, and I am really happy that it is coming on the xbox.  I love the whole vehicle concept and this game just looks amazing overall. Release date for this one is November 18th.
  


I'm done with this for now, I may come back add videos and a few more games later tonight.  Thanks for reading/commenting.


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Addiction!

I honestly have never been addicted to a site as much as this one has hooked me.  There is so much to do with adding things to the databases and the forums which in the past 2 days I have made over 400 posts.  Thank you for sending me all the friend requests and accepting my friend requests, as well as reading my blog and commenting it.  I am going to try to make a blog post everyday.  And congrats GB staff for launching a great site and getting 10,000 members in 2 days.

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