This one takes some preamble, pardon my guts-spilling:
I'm in a weird spot, in that I'm 34, live where I work (I'm an innkeeper), and due to a series of arrangements, I basically get paid in reduced rent. It's worth it to me since I don't drive and get to live in a literal mansion in the heart of my city despite being broke as hell.
However, I'm deeply unhappy with my life, as I rarely leave the house, my social circles are way too small, I have barely any traditional work experience due to my mental health getting me fired from every normal job I've attempted, I dropped out of high school for similar reasons which really fucked me... it's a whole thing, and I sank into my internet and gaming addictions from 18 until now instead of fixing the problem. Call it an early mid-life crisis, but I've had enough, and I'm starting the arduous task of making up for all of the lost years.
My first step I actually took a year ago by signing up for and taking voice lessons (my main dream is to be a singer, as cliché as that sounds). However, that's a journey that'll take quite more than a year of lessons before I can even attempt do anything lucrative with it, and I still need a day job and a social life worth a damn either way.
So, basically, I'm actively hunting that ideal lifestyle from the ground up as I speak. Job I can actually hold on to, GED, maybe belated college if I can swing it, another shot at therapy, continued vocal training... that's pretty much why I'm sharing all of this, putting it down in words helps my motivation to actually do it and not balk at the first sign of difficulty as is my usual M.O.
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