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#1 Posted by teekomeeko (641 posts) -

Sharing time:

My anxieties aren't so bad any more, but as an adult they were always cranked way higher due to people trying desperately to change me from top to bottom, like a makeover except they wanted to mold me into exactly what they themselves were. The number of times I heard people tell me that they can help "fix" me is kind of ridiculous, and until the past few months constantly made me think I was some kind of terrible thing. They weren't even subtle most of the time - straight up telling me I needed to be different.

My anxiety levels have have lessened recently, though not to the degree that I'd like. At 33 I'm more sure of who I am than I've ever been, which really helps. Another chunk of my improvement has come from me tossing people out of my life if they do terrible things to me and knowing that it's not disloyal to do so - I have to be loyal to myself, too, which I never have been compared to others.

Right now my bouts of depression or self-anger last at most a day rather than weeks like it was two even years ago, and my social anxiety is there but smoothed out quite a bit. Usually by the end I'm just thinking "why is this a thought process?" or "why do I care?" Sometimes remembering how a couple of people treated me recently will spiral me downward, and those bouts barely last a few hours because in the end I think "I didn't deserve that. I was kind and was abused in return, and I'm still kind and loyal and honorable. I won."

There's a lot more to say on this topic, for everyone whose posted here obviously, but that's all for me. I hope everyone sharing about their issues here is getting better and better over time.

#2 Edited by teekomeeko (641 posts) -

Gone Girl: 4/5 Something like three gaping plot holes ruin the ending so badly the movie becomes a mockery of itself in the last like 20% of it.

A Company Man: 3.5/5 This movie has some heart and tension that reminds of Drive. Unfortunately the climactic action scene in the end is badly shot (almost looks like they switched to an entirely different camera or settings as it looks different than the rest of the movie). Still, lots of fun.

Kundo: Age of the Rampant: 4/5 It's South Korean wannabe Tarantino, and it's very cool.

Snowpiercer: 4/5 An enjoyable, unique movie. The last third could use some attention from the cutting room floor, though - there's a ton that doesn't need to be there and it ruins the previously solid pacing. Or maybe I'm not smart enough to understand the reason for the filler or something.

The Wolf of Wall Street: 4/5 No one who is focused on in this movie is a good person. It's a deep pool full of bastards, liars, cheaters, and thieves. But that's what they were supposed to be, and this whole movie is incredibly well-acted. Jonah Hill was especially entertaining to watch.

#3 Posted by teekomeeko (641 posts) -

@believer258:

Hah! I added an edit before reading your post that agrees with you more clearly.

Anyway, I don't think there's something wrong with interpreting one way or another - everyone does it and it's pretty great how many things art can mean to so many people. This blog is about not focusing so much on some folks' needs for complexity or sophistication. I used to do that a lot and had to stop because it was forcing me to change the story in ways I didn't like. Now I just try and clear up plot holes, make sure I stick to my own style, and call it a day.

Also, we both have FMA icons. That show is (er, those shows are) the sh*t.

#4 Posted by teekomeeko (641 posts) -

Holy sh*t! That's all I got, really, other than the hope that they include the DLC in the Steam version, too.

#5 Posted by teekomeeko (641 posts) -

I can literally see the DA:O disc from where I'm sitting, and this still would have been a tempting offer, even with Origin involved, if it came with Awakenings, which I never played. But looking at the store the expansion is still $19.99, so I'm good. I'll just await Inquisition with hope in my heart.

#6 Posted by teekomeeko (641 posts) -

Yup, this is why I'm not playing Watch Dogs. I've played not so hot games just because they are memorable and have fun characters. Deadly Premonition, for example, which is absolutely amazing to me despite not being anywhere near a "good game." But Aiden just seems like a character that I want nothing to do with.

He just doesn't grab me as someone I want to guide through their path when it is so clearly, incredibly, dangerously self-centered.

#7 Posted by teekomeeko (641 posts) -

The FFIX music in the background made me remember how much I loved that game. Also, don't let Square-Enix know about this video, probably.

#8 Edited by teekomeeko (641 posts) -

Best / Favorites

  • Mass Effect 2
  • Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim
  • Witcher 2
  • Valkyria Chronicles
  • Dragon Age: Origins
  • The Last Remnant (PC version is an entirely different animal than 360)
  • Fallout 3 / New vegas
  • Deus Ex: Human Revolution (does it even count as an RPG?)

Worst / Least Favorites

  • Lost Odyssey
  • You know what? I barely remember my worsts. They flake off my memory like dead skin cells.

Mediocre / Boring

  • Dragon Age II
  • Ys Seven
  • Risen
  • Star Ocean: The Last Hope
  • Final Fantasy XIII (an amazing game ruined by bad decisions and pointless characters / drama)
  • Yet again, I barely remember these. Probably why they are "mediocre" in my opinion
#9 Posted by teekomeeko (641 posts) -

@nasar7 said:

Best

  • Mass Effect 1/2
  • Demon's Souls
  • Skyrim
  • Yakuza 3
  • Valkyria Chronicles
  • Fire Emblem Awakening

Worst

  • Lost Odyssey
  • Final Fantasy XIII
  • Two Worlds
  • Enchanted Arms

Mediocre

  • Everything Else

I liked FFXIII, but it was more on the "mediocre" side for me. I'm glad to see Lost Odyssey on your "worst" list, though. My Lord, that game was a boring mess, and all the characters with giant boobs just made me roll my eyes in disgust at the laziness.

#10 Posted by teekomeeko (641 posts) -

Great article, Patrick! Nice to read about an experience with gaming so different from my own.