Ryan jokingly talks about dying underneath an arcade cabinet, and the whole crew just writes it off along the lines of "Yeah, that would suck... hey could we have your cabinets if you die?"
Also, it's foreboding when he says "This room feels big and empty" when speaking about Patrick moving to Chicago.
I guess it's awkward only because we know what has happened, but things like his tweet on his death day about how he won't die because of his allergies.
Like a lot of others, I am dealing with this in my own way. Again, this is all probably me thinking too much but the whole hindsight thing sucks. I wonder if the Bombers have thought these thoughts too. "Man, now it sucks that we joked about Ryan getting crushed to death."
I told my friend, who I got into the Bombcast. He understands, and posted about it on Twitter.
I tried to tell my girlfriend, but she doesn't understand video games at all. My friend and I spoke about it a bit briefly last night, and summed it up nicely - "Ryan was one of the few that gave respect to the game hobby, and tries to make people understand it."