I was so incredibly shocked by the news that it still doesn't feel real to me. My first reaction was "what the fuck?" I literally couldn't believe it. Even now I half expect to open the site tomorrow and hear Ryan laughing along with everyone else in the next podcast.
I know he is just some dude I've listened to and watched on the internet, but the positive effect that he had on me is/was real-- its no clearer than it is right now after experiencing something akin to the feeling of loss usually reserved for a friend. The guy is irreplaceable.
Knowing that there won't be another moment where he gets to interact with his friends, coworkers and his audience, knowing that I won't ever get to hear what he thinks about video games and about the life and family that he is leaving behind is all too surreal right now and really gets to me. I give my sincerest condolences. This is seriously devastating. His presence will be dearly missed. R.I.P.