I totally get it. Ryan's passing hit me really hard as well, even though I'd never met him and was never going to. On the one hand it felt weird to feel so much over someone seemingly so disconnected from me. But the truth is, I'd followed him and his work literally for years, since the early days of GameSpot. Hearing and watching him every week, along with his colleagues (who were clearly some of his closest friends) made it feel like I really did know them all. The strong personality focus of Giant Bomb only made that stronger. To be honest, because of that, and the fact that his writing and talking of games was so influential to me, both my own writing and how I played and thought about video games, it's not an exaggeration to say Ryan had a bigger impact on me and my life than anyone else outside of my family. That's why it me, and others, so hard. Godspeed Ryan Davis, we miss you still.