I'm 35 years old, i live in Portugal, a country slowly and steadly decaying into political unrest, big unemployement numbers and a joke to all european union. I'm without a job for 2 months now and my last paycheck was 234 euros. This should be enough reasons to be uterly depressed and without hope but in this times we hang on to the good things we have in life. A mother, a girlfriend, family, friends and the games (the best ones) we all in this site love so much. But some years ago i found another thing to hold on to. Some guys i found in a gaming site called Gamespot. They made me laugh, think and respect the videogame industry and i noticed that they were people like me that really enjoyed to talk about videogames instead of trolling people around. You know whom i'm talking about. Years passed and they founded Giantbomb.
Now, i'm not the most active guy in the site maybe because my english sucks and i couldn't express my thoughs the way i wanted, but i keep coming back just to enjoy the good karma this guys have to offer. Girlfriends came and go but they were here. My father died but still they were here. I lost my job and they still remain here. Maybe is because of this link we created with this guys at GB that we felt so much a death of a person that most of us never met, but the fact is they are here whenever anything disapear from our lives. And that happened again. But this time one of the "eternal" supports that was always here when something bad happened is gone too.
The loss of a person that give us attention, love and care is never easy to bare. It was his work that gave him the oppurtunity to give us that but we never looked at him that way. He was himself. Period. And it is what i think of all GiantBomb crew. And that is why his loss becomes our strengh, there strengh, and i believe that this comunity, this site, will always evolve to somenthing better when there are people like Ryan doing this. They are all like him in their particular way and thats whats makes this work. I don't even fucking care that i have to skip a dinner, a night out with friends and girlfriend or a 50 euros game, but i will give them the premium subscription not because they need but because like me, they care. And there are fewer and fewer things in life this days that care about people...
I hope you guys take my anual subscription money and spend it on drinks remembering the ones we love the most.
Thanks for all this years and i hope years to come. Love you guys.
Sorry for any bad english :P