@monkeyking1969: Thank you for this post, I think a lot of people feel similarly, myself included. The honest posts around mental health are my favorite thing about this community. This is the biggest social experiment in human history, there is no right or wrong way to feel. I've thought about what it must be like to still be employed during this time.
I think people feel guilty for still having a job, increased pressure for working with what has to be reduced staff. Essential workers are heroes, but I hope everyone takes pride and can take some satisfaction in the work they do.
(me) Those who laid off feel a mix of obvious financial pressures, some guilt about not wanting to return to work because they feel they have some meaning in their time off in pursuing personal development... so going back and forth on thoughts about work. A lot. I'm taking classes, and the focus and structure I get from this is the best thing for me. It clears the mind, similar to meditation.