I'm about a third of a way through my second year at uni, and I can't help but feel that I don't want to be here. I'm studying maths and I can't motivate myself to do any of the work. The whole routine is so dull: Go to lectures, do worksheets. That is it.
My flatmates are taking courses in engineering and theres so much variation in their workload compared to mine. They have group work, do presentations, have coursework set in different computer programmes. Not to mention the fact that due to the amount of group work they have to do, they actually know and are friends with loads of people on their course. There are far too many people on mine (over 200 I think), so due to the lack of group work, I barely know any. Also I tend to find very few are particularly friendly (and this leads me to the other aspect of uni: social life).
Another aspect I'm finding difficult to cope with is the social side of uni. Back at home, I have many close friends, I feel totally comfortable around them and they often ask me to come out with them. At uni, its a completely different situation. I rarely go out, and have very few friends that I want to hang around with. It seems like a majority of people at this uni are boring rich kids from London that just want to go to terrible nights out (where the music is god awful) so that they can pull.
Its something I've thought long and hard about for the past few weeks. At the moment, I suppose I have 3 options:
1) Drop out (and try and figure out what I want to do with my life)
2) Stick it out and wait for it to come good (Really not a big fan of this option)
3) Stick it out but start paying for music lessons (As I'm not going out too much/doing too much, I was thinking of pooling the money saved from nights out into guitar or singing lessons. My dad said that he would consider putting money into this too)
I've talked about this a bit with my parents, and they reckon I should just do whatever makes me happy. I've emailed my tutor to see if I can meet up with him to discuss the situation, but he hasn't got back to me yet. So yeah, a bit to take in. Thoughts?
EDIT: So I spoke to my tutor today, but before I saw him I had already made my mind up that I would at least stick around until the end of 2nd year. The meeting was a bit of a waste of time. He said that it was too late for me to change to a joint maths course (let alone change course completely) and that I'm better off seeing it out, that I should try and keep to some routine until something clicks. It makes sense, but it doesn't really make me feel any better. He said he'll meet up with me again after christmas to see how I'm doing, which was nice. (Also, just like to point out I have no interest in taking any kind of engineering course. I was just using it as an example to compare with the lack of variation in my studies)
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