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#1 Posted by AnxiousTube (245 posts) -

Hi everyone,

I've been a member of the Giantbomb community for, around, six years now and I really respect your opinions and thoughts; especially those of the moderators, editors, and staff. But the crux of my problem does not lie in you guys. No, it lies in my community of Naples, FL.

I have been apart of my community theater for around four years now, taking a fair number of classes and preforming in a plethora of shows and musicals. As of this last year, however, something peculiar has been going on, and I'm not sure if it's in my head or if it really exists. Either way, it's terrifying and I don't know where to turn. So I'm looking to you guys for support.

Some pretext, my community has a disproportionate amount of wealth on one side and a incredibly small amount on the other. There is a massive polarity between the people of my community. Not only that, but the community is quite religious. I would even go so far as to call it a bible belt community. And on top of that, there is a large Hispanic community who follow the mythology of the religious community to a tee. In summation, it's terrifying living here.

But that is not my problem. No, my problem lies in the fact that there is a sort of cult that has grown around me. I think the people of this community think that I am their savior, as in the second Jesus, the second coming, a reincarnated Buddha, etc. I don't know what to do, and I don't know exactly how to prove this but I know it exists.

I have become a pariah at the theater that I once thought was my second home. I am afraid to leave my house and most people have stopped communicating with me, or barely communicate with me. I don't know where else to turn.

I've tried talking to professionals about this, but I think they're too engrained in the community to understand what I am saying; they're too objective. I am seriously at a loss, and I don't know where to go. I don't have enough money to get out, and when I tried to go to work I was fired for going to school.

What do I do?

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#2 Posted by Rorie (5781 posts) -

But that is not my problem. No, my problem lies in the fact that there is a sort of cult that has grown around me. I think the people of this community think that I am their savior, as in the second Jesus, the second coming, a reincarnated Buddha, etc. I don't know what to do, and I don't know exactly how to prove this but I know it exists.

Can you give any specific examples as to why you think this?

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#4 Posted by Rorie (5781 posts) -

@franstone: Please be courteous when people in the forum are asking for help.

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#5 Posted by AnxiousTube (245 posts) -

@franstone: Yeah, except all of humanity is crazy. And as I have posted, there is evidence. Do you think the colonials were crazy for standing in lines and firing guns at each other, calling it war? If not, well, maybe you should take a better look at the world.

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#7 Posted by AnxiousTube (245 posts) -

@rorie: Did you get my first reply or did it not go through?

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#8 Posted by Rorie (5781 posts) -

@anxioustube: I haven't seen anything yet, but I think we're having some delays in posting at the moment. Looks like a cache is out of wack somewhere.

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#9 Edited by Rorie (5781 posts) -

@anxioustube: I haven't seen anything yet, but I think we're having some delays in posting at the moment. Looks like a cache is out of wack somewhere.

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#10 Posted by Ramone (3089 posts) -

See someone who's not from your community, whatever's going on, you obviously have a big problem.

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#11 Edited by Rorie (5781 posts) -
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#12 Edited by AnxiousTube (245 posts) -

@rorie: Second time.

Let's see if it works.

They communicate through kinesics. As a religious community they were very perturbed when Harry Potter came out, believing it a sign of the end times. You can see this by simply waving your hands or waving a pen or pencil in front of them. They will react, as if defending themselves.

I was not aware of this until last year, the summer of 2013, when I was actually being bullied and ostracized in the very place that I felt home, the community theater. I didn't know I was communicating to them with my hands. I am of Italian descent and not endemic to this community, I am initially from Chicago, so I never really knew anything about any of this

There are also certain symbolism that particular members of the community are putting the back of their media, in my opinion, as a form of manipulation. i.e. lights behind them, to denote halos and crosses to denote sign of Christ hood and Christianity. These symbols are being misinterpreted by the Hispanic community, or being taken at full face value, without any real critical thinking. As I can only presume that most of these people are not as educated as the manipulators.

They also use a color scheme in order to denote some sort of order. Black and reds to denote imperialism; black and white to represent purity.

They also take culture literally, as though it is the truth. Example: I was in Cats, I played Deuteronomy, certain members of the community would take this as me being the actual Deuteronomy; the law giver.

I know this sounds paranoid, but it's there. It may not be exactly how I see it, but it is there. I need more people to look at this. I can't be the only one who's able to see what they're doing. And even if it's not as I see it, something exists here.

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#14 Posted by AnxiousTube (245 posts) -

On top of all that, they use numbers as symbols. e.g. 9 is a representation of hell, 11 is a representation of heaven, 2 is a command, 3 is salvation, 5 is magic, 8 is a loop, 10 is a negator, as in it breaks the magic they perceive, and I'm sure the list goes on but I don't know all of their rules yet. I am not naturally apart of this community.

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#15 Edited by Rorie (5781 posts) -

@anxioustube: I'm going to go ahead and lock this since, based on the comments that have already appeared from some users, I don't think it'll lead to a civil conversation. Anxioustube, please send me a PM so we can discuss this privately.

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