I'm currently in a bit of a predicament. I am a teaching assistant at school, and I work a 26 hour week. It's not the best pay, but it's about £800 a month and that's enough to live on. I love the job, I really like the people I work with, and I adore the children in the class I'm in. There's a few problems though, however minor they are. At the moment, I walk 2.5 miles a day to work, each way. That in itself isn't to bad, but it's really cold, wet, and muddy where I live at the moment, and those walks to and from work can feel like a bit of a death march. Another problem is that 7 of my work hours are doing outside dinner duty. Again, it's not the worst, but it's standing outside for 90 minutes a day in the bitter cold making sure nobody gets hurt. Naturally, both of these problems will ease up as the year goes on, with it getting warmer, but at the moment, it's pretty miserable.
Now, I still get job updates from the local council because I signed up when I was unemployed. I got an email through this morning with a job opportunity that seems too good to pass up on. It's a 34 hour a week contract, naturally 8 hours more than my current contract. It's on a direct bus route from my house, which means I can get the bus straight to school, and there's no dinner duty, which means no standing around for hours outside. I know the school already, it's one I did my TA training at. I volunteered there for 18 months, so they know me there, and I built up pretty good relationships with everyone there.
But I can't seem to pull the trigger on this one. I fucking LOVE the school I'm at at the moment. The teacher I'm currently working with probably the best I've ever worked with, and I get on really well with the rest of the staff, and I've built up a pretty good relationship with the children that I work with every day.
But despite this, I know the newer job would be absolutely perfect. Outside of all the little "pros" that I've already outlined, I'd finally make enough money to move out of my parents house. Now don't get me wrong, it's great here. I get on well with my family, and they have no intent to kick me out. But the thought of being able to get that independence and finally move out is mighty appealing.
I spoke to a couple of friends about this situation last night, and I think the biggest thing holding me back is a sense of guilt I've placed on myself. I've only been at my current job for about 6 months, so I feel like I'd be slapping them in the face by leaving for a job with better hours and pay. Like I said, I get on really well with everyone here, so that's not a problem. I just see this newer job as such an opportunity. It's better pay per hour, and it's a lot more hours in total. For TA's, it's pretty much the gold standard- anything over 30 hours.
I feel super nervous about explaining to my current headteacher that I'm applying for a new job. What if I don't get it? What will the people I'm currently working with think of me then? Won't they see me as a bit of a traitor- someone who left the job because something better came up. I'm super nervous that if I do apply, people will find out and "fall out" with me.
What would you guys do in my situation? Would you take the risk and go for the better paying job, knowing what you do? Would you rock the boat a little and take that risk? Or just buckle down at my current job where I'm happy