So I have lived in the same city for 28 years, which for me is my entire life, and it's time for me to move on. I feel like I can't grow as a person or achieve what I want if I stay here any longer. So I'm finally moving to a different city. In a different country. Where I'm going to live on a houseboat for nine months.
I've always wanted to see what it would be like if I lived in a completely different country where I didn't knew anyone. It's a big challenge and I can't wait to get started. More than anything I'm just looking for change.
It feels good to finally be moving on. Literally and figuratively.
The only thing I care about now is working towards achieving my dreams, instead of just dreaming about them, whether they involve traveling more, photography, work or further education. I just want to be true to myself in the moment. I'm done worrying about the future. I have lived with loneliness and depression and spent so much time being worried about what the future might bring. Feeling like I was failure because I wasn't where I wanted to be in my life. Socially or Professionally.
I recently went to Berlin. My second time there but my first time traveling abroad on my own. Part of me feared that it might be weird, or lonely, to travel on my own since I wouldn't have anyone to share it with. I couldn't have been more wrong. Being in Berlin on my own gave me a feeling of freedom and for the first time in a long time I finally forgot about the worries that haunted my mind at home. It's also super easy to meet new people when you travel on your own. Seriously if I had known before I would have travelled solo a lot sooner. I think anyone should try traveling on their own at least once in their life. And I say this as someone that has spent most of my late teens, and twenties, always feeling uncomfortable and out of place in most social situations. Heck, to some degree I still feel that way and I probably always will. But if you never try to challenge yourself and get out of your comfort zone you will never get anywhere in life. Sorry if that sounds harsh but that's just how I see it.
Before Berlin I had a strong suspicion that I might go abroad for a long time, since I didn't feel like I belonged in my own country anymore, but after Berlin I knew for sure that spending time abroad is where I belong. The world is my home now. There is simply too much for me to see and do for me to stay in one place.
Life should be an adventure and I'm finally starting my adventure.
But what about your life? What has been the biggest positive life changing decision you have made?