I'll be up front about this. I've suffered from severe depression and social anxiety disorder for the last...ten years or so? I went to a Doctor when I was 18 and asked them why I was so sensitive all the time to going out, and why I never had good days. After seeing a few different people, they diagnosed me with depression, and the reason why I couldn't go out, was because I had acute social anxiety disorder.
Like most people with depression/anxiety problems, I've really struggled over the years. At the moment though, I feel pretty great. I have good medication (Mirtazapine) and I have a great job that I love. Most days I feel fine. But there's a huge part of me that always feels down. For the last 5 years, I haven't left the village I live in. I just can't. I live near Manchester in the NW of England, and I just can't go there. The feeling of being around so many unknown people on the tram, the surge of people in the city, the unknown. I haven't been to Manchester because I'm worried I'm going to get mugged or stabbed. That's the anxiety for you.
Like most people. I feel controlled by my anxiety, but I don't let it RULE my life. I still talk to people at work every day, and I work in a school, so I have plenty of kids to talk to to meet my social quota every day.
I read Dan's "Anxiety as an Ally" and like most of you, felt like he was retelling my life. Amazing book. If you have ANY form of Anxiety problems, read that book, it's terrific.
So, why is it when I go online, I see people touting that they're depressed like it's a personality quirk?
There's nothing fun about having anxiety and depression. It isn't some cool badge of honour. It kinda ruins your life. You can't really do a lot of things, because you're so worried about the consequences. I'm not gonna go on Instagram and post some of the asinine pictures off there, but if you've used Instagram's "Trending" button or whatever it is (The second button), you'll likely see people talking about anxiety and depression, it's HILARIOUS.
Has anyone else noticed this trend online? Anyone else suffering similarly want to post their opinion? I'd love to hear from you guys!