Sorry to hear that this sort of thing has been weighing on your mind and dragging you down lately... Enough that you felt like you needed to publicly apologize. But it's definitely a situation where because it happened to you, you're still thinking about it while the rest of the world has moved on. Things like anxiety or paranoia or regular ol' depression make it very difficult to push those sorts of memories away, and once they reestablish themselves it can be a complete goddamn nightmare to get them to go away.
If you wish to look at it from this angle, transitioning can, in some way, be a means of moving past the person that had been and allowing one's self to start again.. Obviously the things that push that decision are considerably more complicated and deep seated than simply wishing for another go, but in realizing the person that had existed up to that point had been a lie, it can feel like it is possible to allow the things that had been holding that person down to stay with them. Might not work for you as it has for me, but... all of the responses in here show that nobody remembers the thing that's been eating away at you, and they're all just glad to hear that you are in a better place and have begun creating a life that you feel is worth living.
Without much else to say about the evidence speaking for itself... Congratulations on finding yourself and pursuing that happiness. Whatever you may consider to be past weaknesses or failings, no one can say that you aren't doing some incredibly powerful shit now. And that ain't nothin', girly. <3
The best thing about this new Doom game is it is entirely self aware of just how stupid it is. It leans hard and heavy on the bullshit in the setting and story because why not, man.
"we went to mars to harness raw hell juice to solve our energy crisis. the giant corporation that gets everything done is run entirely by out and proud devil worshippers. if you wanna move past unpaid intern or sanitation worker you have to get a pentagram tattoo. our slogan is literally ‘the road to hell is paved by the energy source we have a monopoly on’. fuck it"