Wonderful write-up!
I actually have another backlog that I end up thinking of a lot with my game backlog, and that's the extremely imposing number of books I've been meaning to read. I have three bookcases packed to the gills with books (which have become all the more omnipresent since moving into a studio apartment), but like my game backlog, my book backlog is more than just a sterile list of the things I want to play or read that I haven't yet.
For one thing, the mere act of accumulating a backlog is sort of a memory aide for me. Not all of us have the encyclopedic memory of the world of games as a Tim Rogers, or the colossal collection of a Jeff Gerstmann, and for me, my backlog partially exists just to remind me that certain games exist and came out, and that they're worth remembering as I look back on the hobby. This is a big chunk of the reason I still like to hold on to physical media, both books and games, is that once I clear something from my backlog, there's a physical reminder of it to hold on to that can help me recall it just by pulling a title off a shelf. Either way, with so many games coming out and so much, I dunno, life, it can be nice just to remember what games happened.
On the other hand, a backlog is also fundamentally aspirational. For most people, especially people who haven't been playing games since the Atari, a backlog is unconquerable. Good games come out all the time, and any time spent looking back and knocking out the classics is time for new games to slip onto your list, and time spent chasing the new hotness is time that That Old Classic Which I've Not Gotten Around To Yet is left to languish. But, thanks to personal brain worms and the slow creeping corruption of the American capitalist Puritanical work ethic, I like to measure all of my time, including my leisure time, in "productivity", and transforming the hobby of games into a checklist does help me to feel that arbitrary sense of "productivity". But, ultimately, it really exists as a way to justify to myself to carve out a bit of time to play games and enjoy myself. Something about "oh, I should clear this thing from my backlog" carries more weight in my mind than "oh I should play this game", and it serves as a motivation to actually sit down and play a game instead of doomscroll or do work or just do nothing.
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