As I am writing these words right now I am currently lying down in my bed bawling like a little baby. I don't know why I am crying after the death of someone whom i have never met. But Ryan Davis brought so much joy and happiness to the world that I just can't help myself and breakdown. I went through some tough times as a kid going through elementary school, middle school, and high school. But I always knew that i can come to either gamespot or GB to check out the crew doing dumb stuff on the internet and clearly not taking themselves too seriously.

I remember the first time I saw the most of the current GB crew. The PS3 and the Nintendo Wii were about to launch and gamespot had their weekly show on the spot playing. During this show they were demoing some PS3 and Wii games in the lead up to the launch of the respective consoles. The moment I realized that these guys are the best people who cover the gaming industry was the moment when Greg Kasavin (editor in chief of gamespot at the time) was demoing Trauma center for the wii. There was a moment when Greg had to use the defibrillator in the game and he couldn't get the guy to come back to him. Thats when Jeff started yelling LIVE DAMMIT LIVE. Then Ryan followed by saying DON'T GIVE UP ON ME NOW. I busted out laughing at how funny it was and decided that these guys are the best.

Then the events of 2007 happened where Jeff Gerstmann was fired from Gamespot and Ryan, Vinny, Brad, and Alex all left along with him. All was good however because Giant Bomb was started not long after. Perhaps you have heard of it, its a website about video games. Over the past few years Giant Bomb has been the host too some of the most interesting and the funniest content about video games. With Ryan hosting many of the features on the site, Giant Bomb always had such an upbeat tone and that was mainly because of Ryan's joyful mood that he brought to the site.

Fast Forward to today and we are back to me lying down in my bed crying. I have never met Ryan in person, but because of how public his life was it almost feels like we have all lost a really close friend. It doesn't matter if most of us haven't met him. He was a guy that brought a lot of positive feelings to a very fucked up world with a lot of problems. Unfortunately we are going to have to say goodbye to those feelings.

RIP Ryan Davis

P.S. If anyone wants to be cheered up I always found this song helpful