After 25 years and some hard lessons, I've learned that I need to make it my own way. The long and the short of it is that I need to be in the games industry. Be it on the journalism side, the development side, doesn't matter, I need to be in. I feel like I have a lot to add and I have lots of that passion goo required. In order to make my way into the industry I've started my own podcast, learned some handy web development languages and a whole host of other things. One of which includes being featured on Bitmob a few times.  That wasn't me tooting a horn, because what a sad horn that is. "I was published on Bitmob" doesn't have the umph I think I need. I've gotten off to a good start thus far. If you'd like, have a listen to the podcast and let me know what you think.

Have any of you ever had that feeling in your gut that tells you that you belong somewhere? I mean a really strong feeling. Not like "I should be standing on the sidewalk and not in the road," but more like "Shit, I'd be kick ass at this job. What the hell am I doing here?" I've had that feeling for a while and for whatever reason never pursued it. I guess it can be traced back to my parents. One of them thought video games were a waste, the other thought a little less. I was always pushed to do something else, something more stable and reliable. Dammit, I don't want that. I want to be doing what I love. To hell with stable.

I work in a call center and the other day a women called in and told me that I should "just do it." As she was almost 60 I assumed she wasn't hip enough to rip off Nike. She told me that  life is short and we need to do whatever we can to be happy. She literally offered to buy me a plane ticket so that I could fly to California to find a job doing what I  love. You know what, I very nearly took her up on the offer. I should have. I wrote her name and the message she gave me on a piece of paper and keep it in my wallet. Whenever I start feeling like I can't do what it is I've set out to do, I look at that paper. It sounds cheesy, but it means something to me. I'll make it. Maybe not tomorrow or the next day, but some day down the road I'm going to be doing what I love.

That is all.

Obviously if I'm not allowed to post a link to my podcast in the forums, I apologize. I'll remove it immediately. Otherwise I would love some feedback. It can be found at www.coreymw.com.