You’ve really been put through it. I’m so sorry. I’m about to share my 2020, not to compare pain (I don’t believe pain is measurable) but to let you know there are so many of us suffering and you are not alone.
I lost my half brother (drank himself to death), two uncles (heart failure and cancer) and my dad before Covid-19 even hit. My wife and I then had the additional responsibilities thrust on everyone with two small kids during the pandemic. One of my kids got diagnosed on spectrum the week my dad died.
I was lucky in that my company responded quickly and got us working from home quickly but my wife is a therapist who specializes in ptsd from sex abuse cases so she had to keep exposing herself to help people in need. She tested positive and 4 days later was in the icu. The day I dropped her off, was the day we moved to a new house. I entered the hardest part of my life in juggling a move and 2 kids who wanted to see their mommy in a new house. Thanks to her med team and front line workers my wife was released from the icu ten days later. She was close to death multiple times but she’s the strongest person in the world. She’s a long hauler now and still on oxygen here and there. Selfishly I haven’t been able to rest since I don’t have my partner.
I haven’t had a chance to mourn my dad (no services due to Covid). I feel that weight everyday. Please make sure you take time to process what you’ve been through. Trust me, if you don’t you pay a price. Let’s just say, my monthly payment to the liquor store and belt size have gone up a lot.
You are not alone fellow Duder! Let’s get through this mess stronger! I always have the Mister Rogers quote run through my head about seeing bad stuff “look for the helpers.” I’m lucky in that I just have to see my wife who is back helping.
We are all stronger then we think.
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