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One of my biggest frustrations with MMOs is the disconnected between, well, everything. Every player gets the same story, which is really jarring. Very few roleplaying tools, usually. And at best they are very divorced from the gameplay, and the story the game actually comes with.

Building a character doesn't seem to happen in gameplay much aside from leveling up and improving stats. With the "endgame" relying on a typical gear treadmill in most RPGs with an online element.

Are there any RPGs that you can play online that are roleplaying and characterization first?

I feel this frustrating lack of immersion and character development in most MMORPGs. And the response I typically get to this is "but MMOs do have lots of character development, your character levels up and improves stats all the time." I mean development in terms of personality, not just body or physical attributes.

I don't want just a text based MUSH, either. That wouldn't be much, if any better, than just roleplaying on social networks like some people do. I want something that feels like a game.

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@justin258: Couple days ago, Newegg ran a limited flash sale for 1080s at $400 a pop. Hopefully an indicator for good things to come in the very near future.

Looks like I'm going to have to start checking Newegg regularly for sales again.

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@isomeri said:

As far as racing games are concerned, do you think he veers more into the simulation or arcade side of things? For arcade racing, Burnout Paradise and Need for Speed: Hot Pursuit would be great options. For something in between arcade and simulation he might want to give the Dirt 3 a try. And for total simulation I might recommend Project CARS, or you could find whatever the last F1 game released on PS3 was. Also, Wipeout HD for something a bit different.

Probably a bit closer to simulation, though either would probably be fine.

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#4  Edited By HarbinLights

If there is anything other than Gran Turismo in this category you would recommend, please let me know.

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@therealseaman said:

@harbinlights: "From everything I know, you must be dealing with a pretty tough life by living in Japan. I feel pretty lucky that I don't have to deal with living in Japan and all of its downsides

Was that some kind of passing diss?

Certainly not at you. At Japan as a place to be a citizen and work, maybe.

Japan just doesn't seem like a great place to live.

But then, I'm an otaku, not a Japanophile.

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@therealseaman said:

@harbinlights: Uh I'm not going to write a thesis on Otaku in response, I was just saying after living in Japan (and still am), being an Otaku isn't really something you should be screaming from the hilltops and I've not seen any change in this

That's fine, I'm not going to Japan. And don't particularly desire to go.

From everything I know, you must be dealing with a pretty tough life by living in Japan. I feel pretty lucky that I don't have to deal with living in Japan and all of its downsides.

@lazyimperial said:

Look, original poster: you get one life. It shouldn't be a miserable affair. If you find yourself questioning your identity and thinking that you'd be happier presenting as something different than you were born as, fine. You're not hurting anyone. It's an individual choice and you're within your rights to make it. Just make sure you really, really, REALLY think things through before you undergo any irreversible physical surgeries or hormone therapies. There's a broad spectrum of tastes outside the standard normal curve of human sexuality, and you don't want to transition only to find out that you were actually a transvestite and not a transgender (there is a difference). I've had friends that jumped the gun, and it's a miserable thing for them when they realize it and a miserable thing for their friends and family who, frankly, often have no idea how to comfort them. I've often felt guilty that I've been at a loss of words.

But yeah. Just make sure to do your due diligence. Crossdressing is different from transvestite leanings, and those are different from gender dysphoria. I might recommend counseling to figure out the lay of the proverbial land. There are plenty of providers in every metropolitan area. Good luck to you! I hope you find the answers you're seeking.

I appreciate the advice. I also don't think anything like HRT would be particularly for me. My closest guess to anything halfway correct for myself is that I might be agender anyway. At least, I haven't found an identity yet. So, possibly? Until I find a gender for myself based on anything tangible, I guess agender?

As for the laser hair removal I've been getting, I don't regret that at all. In fact, I'm not personally the type to regret a body modification. But I do appreciate the concern.

I like my sex drive, though. I only want to change my body in any way that would seem like an enhancement, a lowered sex drive sounds like a massive downgrade.

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To the OP:

Like you, I also have trouble understanding transgenderism, because unlike sexually I can't logically explain mine. I was born male and I've never thought any differently, but when ask to explain why I'm male, I can't logically define it without referring to gender stereotypes, or just saying because. My understanding of transgender individuals is that there is a clear disconnect between their mind and body; to the extend that their body and mind don't share the same identity. Trying to explain this disconnect to someone who doesn't have it is like trying to explain colors to someone born blind.

If you don't have this clear disconnect, which judging by your post you don't (neither do I), then I think you are just making a mountain out of a mole hill.How does it help you to better define your gender, if you are not suffering from gender conflicts? Ultimately you are just creating a word that helps you define something that you have always been, just so other people can categorize you better.

Even if I might not be trans, I'm just trying to understand the reality of gender. Either the claim that having a penis makes you a boy/man like I was told as a child is true, or it is not. I want to know the answer to that.

And the answer to that question applies to me personally as someone with a penis.

Maybe it's still to be so curious and to want to know, but I do. The commonly accepted replacement for penis as the cause of gender is now brain structure, similar to sexual orientation, except for gender identity. The idea that both cis and trans people have a part of their brains that causes them to have a sense of gender identity.

Never have I had such a neurological sensation. And since I haven't, maybe that means I'm not actually cis. I want to follow all of the claims about gender identity and sexual orientation and follow them to their endgame. There is a truth to be understood here, and I want to know it. There are conflicting views on gender identity. Either having a penis makes you a man or it doesn't. Either there is a part of the brain causing gender identity, or there isn't. And for some reason I just really want to tease out the truth of this.

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However, i believe that there are three things that the whole a world agrees with as manly. Which are mascular body, facial hair and deep voice.

Muscles are like, the girliest thing ever, though.

Real women lift.

Um... huh. *shrug*

I remember stuff about the feminine penis mostly as otaku culture memes. It's only until recently that I've just started hearing trans people say feminine penis. It's been real interesting.

Otaku are always talking about how a character they like has a feminine penis, lol

To go into a possibly unwanted and lewd amount of detail, I think that a lot are talking about how a penis, particularly under the influence of estrogen, can be rather soft. "Feminine" in this case, often refers to the social constructs of gender which define softness and smoothness with femininity. At least in my experience, a person saying "feminine penis" is probably calling it soft and smooth.

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@therealseaman said:

@harbinlights: It's not my opinion. It's reality. going around calling yourself an Otaku in Japan does not have the "cute" connotation people in the west have given it lol.

Westerners calling themselves Otaku are not really the same, they're just taking a Japanese word and using that instead of calling themselves nerds (well a lot of them).

According to ZUN at least, times are changing, definitely a lot of people self identify as otaku there. It is a counter-culture. So of course most people there or here don't respect it. I feel like people who say that Westerners who self identify as otaku don't understand what the word means, don't quite understand.

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So I've tried to edit my post to add more effort and thought and such, and every time I have, I've gotten this error. It probably has something to do with the video getting stuck in loading when I try to edit.

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So, while I know it is a bit bad forum etiquette to double post like this, I don't feel like I have a whole of of choice at the moment. So, pretend this is an edit please and that I'm not just posting again to add what I could have edited. I know this is off-topic and derailing, but I feel like it deserves an effortful and fair rebuttal.

https://otakumode.com/news/52ae46f5ff943d707900009d/Interview-with-Touhou-Project-Founder-and-Creator-ZUN-Part-2

ZUN: When compared with older stereotypes, I get the feeling that recently the term “otaku” has more or less gained a positive image. Before, to say “I’m an Otaku” was almost masochistic and self-deprecating. Now otaku has become a status to be proud of. I remember first hearing the term “light otaku” and thinking, “Huh? Otaku isn’t a bad word anymore?”

TOM: It seems that while otaku cultural staples such as anime, manga, and video games are still thought of as “things for children to enjoy,” that perception is not as strong as it used to be.

ZUN: Simply put, the people who encountered otaku culture as children and experienced it growing up are now reluctant to give up these activities even as adults. As a result, the population of otaku continues to increase, and that has affected former perceptions. Similarly, kids today raised with smartphones, which are new to us, will likely develop their own set of values because of their relationship to this technology.

TOM: To put it bluntly, would you call it a fad?

ZUN: Fads or fashions have the sense of being limited to an extremely short span of time. What I’m referring to is a much longer span of time. I think “culture” would be an accurate way to describe it.

I don't necessarily even totally agree with the above. But I do see how ZUN could see that the stigma around otaku culture could seem to be decreasing around the world.

If you mean that being an otaku is considered bad by society? I absolutely agree. I just don't care. I am not going to pretend that I am someone who would be accepted anywhere or in any culture.

If you simply being that being an otaku is bad, then as an otaku, I have a vested interest in disagree with that. And whether it is a good thing or a bad thing, it is who I am, bad or not.

Anyway, what would you call Momochi Minami?

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Is she an otaku? I am like her and look up to her in many ways. Except I am probably less normal and well adjusted as she is.

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@harbinlights: It's not my opinion. It's reality. going around calling yourself an Otaku in Japan does not have the "cute" connotation people in the west have given it lol.

Westerners calling themselves Otaku are not really the same, they're just taking a Japanese word and using that instead of calling themselves nerds (well a lot of them).

According to ZUN at least, times are changing, definitely a lot of people self identify as otaku there. It is a counter-culture. So of course most people there or here don't respect it. I feel like people who say that Westerners who self identify as otaku don't understand what the word means, don't quite understand.

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They're all anime.

I'm not a Hollywood person.

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@harbinlights: It looks like that motherboard only supports 3 different CPUs, and you can only upgrade to a i7-7700.

https://support.hp.com/us-en/product/hp-pavilion-power-580-000-desktop-pc-series/16425610/model/17345625/document/c05355651

Like I was saying, these things aren't built to be upgraded. My advice is not to waste even more money by trying to upgrade this thing. Just try to deal with it for now until you can put something else together, but I don't think a single part from this prebuilt should be reused or salvaged. Nothing here is worth saving unless you want to keep the hard drive for backups.

The good news is that the motherboard does look like it has a standard 24 pin power connector, so at least there is that. But again, I wouldn't throw any money at this thing.

Ah, you went to a lot of trouble looking that up for me, thanks. That's very good to know.

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The power supply is a 300watt generic "oh god I'm barely holding on". This mandates you get a new power supply for any kind of graphics card upgrade, which means you need this for a new GPU at minimum, but as they say your case is compact and may not fit most big cards anywhere. There are high end cards made in compact sizes just for computers like this but you may just need a new case.

Yikes! And that shouldn't be a problem because I have several highly rated 750W and above PSUs, including my Seasonic Snow Silent I'm proud of, which is 80 Plus Platinum rated.

I have many very nice PSUs and cases I've collected over the years. From Corsair, Antec, Enermax, and Seasonic. I think I have like a dozen of both, now. I don't skimp out on PSUs at all, all of them are either from Corsair, Antec, Enermax, or Seasonic, and all are highly rated. I always look at PSUs and cases as an investment I want to be future-proof.