A large chunk of my life over the past few years has involved Giant Bomb, and to a lesser extent, the other Whiskey sites. I've spent more time here than I should probably ever admit. These sites have given me such joy over the past few years, but I'm finding as of late that I'm not having those same feelings anymore. Or at least not nearly as strong. I'm not blaming the staff, or claiming there has been any sort of drop in quality. This is purely a personal issue that I hope I'm someday able to overcome.

My life has been going nowhere for a long time now, and I'm not happy. I have no job, I've been out of school, and I've been steadily losing friends as well. Even friends that at one point, I thought I would never lose. I've even lost someone that I once thought of as more than a friend. The past several months have been the craziest roller coaster of emotions I've ever experienced. By far. Here I am, though, at the lowest of lows. If I could turn back time and do things differently, I would. But I can't. All I can do now is make changes. I don't have all of the answers, or really any answers at all, but I have to try. I'm going to start by--obviously--not using Giant Bomb any longer apart from maybe popping on for a video every now and then. This being the case, I'm also stepping down from my position on the Pass the Whiskey podcast. This was already planned due to some personal issues with another person, but now it just makes all the more sense to step down permanently. I'm also likely going to stop using Twitter as much as I have in the past. I may still update that from time to time, though. Basically, I just want nothing to do with anything that's happened over the past several months. I'd like to clear my mind and just forget any of this ever happened. If only that were possible. It's funny how something seemingly so amazing one moment can turn into a pile of shit so quickly. I feel like I've been torn down and stepped on. I feel like I've been betrayed. I just can't believe it all had to happen like this. Good god, I legitimately can't believe it. Things need to change now, though.

This is my life. I don't like this life. I have to do something about it.

<3

--JJ