Ok so this first thing I've written in forever but I feel like I need to write something to try and express how I feel, and mainly explain that i did not expect to come on to the site today with this news after a really nice weekend. I'm going to be honest i still feel like this is some weird fake joke but I know it more and more that it isn't, and maybe I was really sad cause after I read that I kinda shut down and just now I feel sad and just don't want tear to fall. I have to say i never met you but anytime on a live stream on podcast or quick look or anything i kinda feel like you made me and everyone else a friend somehow.

My prayers are with his family, wife and all his closest friends, just remember he's always with you guys in spirit he loved you guys and that's a fact. So although somber and sad trust me he is with you guys by your sides always.

OK so this headline isn't meant literally like to commit suicide or anything cause i decided to listen to too many emo records or something (shudders at the thought) but more in line with the fact of staring down E3. The reason I'm writing this is because I been thinking allot of a question the guys were asked by a fan about if he should go to E3 or PAX prime. Which made me think allot about that over the last week or so being on the outside looking in E3 is seems way more exciting then PAX, mainly cause of the fact that it allows you to see what's suppose to be allot of the biggest fireworks, at-least as long as it doesn't leak out before hand some how.

So that's how it's suppose to be and allows for the biggest things for the next year or two so that, let's be honest allot of nerds and geeks get overly excited over another metal gear game and begin to scream and over react at a press conference. That's how you know these people are professional and keeping things in check, but i digress E3 all things considered is the biggest thing that happens for games so all of us get really excited and would die to get into it anyway possible. So i hear ya man would love to get in and go see stuff too, but the way it was told about it just sounds like way too chaotic, cold and seems to have a weird vibe with all the business and everyone just running around and too busy to be excited about anything. I should just state these are just my personal views on all these things for all I know I could have it totally wrong, this place could be very fun, inviting and friendly but I don't know.

This brings me to PAX east or prime depending on where you live or other various situations who knows you could be able to do both of these shows I don't know you so yeah. This place is more or less made for people like us who are on the outside looking in all the time on two fronts developers that wanna be able to make games for a living and people that wanna see and play games before they come out. This seems more like the environment that I think would be more fitting I mean yeah sure all the major games are gonna have super long lines along with food and bathrooms, but isn't that what makes the experience? Actually no its not...well not to me anyways. This place is more about being excited about games and the community at large also, allows for those as for mentioned developers in the indie scene making cool stuff to show and have equal space as big name disk games. PAX seems to be the only place in the world that allows us just a glimpse into what the guys here and at other various sites do and it's always seems to be the most friendly to everyone on the outside constantly looking in.

So yeah that is a brief little something something into what i been thinking on that, again I can not stress enough that this is what I think I have never been to either of these events so strictly my views with this. I should also mention this is the first real thing i have written on here ever I wanna do more of these especially of this one especially, as long as you guys are into it so please comment on it with what you think. This probably isn't as in depth as it probably should be, but I'm trying to keep em brief and light as to make you think about it and have your own take and say on this topic and others I been thinking about.