So, the theme established with this unread blog will be me talking about video games and real world problems.

Assassin's Creed Unity disaster

Holy shit, I am so glad that I can't afford this at the moment; it's a mess!Before I discuss the framerate issues just look at this atrocity, this crime against my vision!

Yeah, that made me want to grab my nearest cross(I don't even know what I believe in anymore!)and somehow half jokingly, half seriously bring it to Ubisoft's attention.Heaven help this poor creature and its poor victims.

Seriously though,I really did want to give ACU a try, but just hearing of all the technological problems just made me feel worried.I'm at about 90% completion in Shadow of Mordor so I'm looking for a new game, perhaps similar, so I looked to a now okay option(such a shame, such a shame) to see and hear about it just chugging and being a hot mess.If this becomes normal with video games, I think I'll pass and get more into the arts!Please, no, not this!

A desire to leave an earthly hell

After three months ago, I've been trying so hard to be somewhat normal and a productive member of society.I was at my lowest, I was so lethargic, so apathetic towards others, distant, and just suicidal.I couldn't leave my bed and all I could to was listen to music at my desk.One day I just changed for the better.I lost about 30 pounds, I've been learning and taking art seriously;such as writing,literature, music, and visual art,I might be making friends and I'm much more empathetic. Much to my discomfort I've been trying to socialize with mixed results.Being socially anxious and bipolar, it is very hard for me to maintain friends and lovers.Sometimes it is very hard to make them, I'm trying, though.Outside can be hit or miss but as a geek and gamer, it is hard when you are 20 and with a parent while everyone else is living.The thing with this parent is that she's just lost it.She's psychologically not her, she screams, yells, mocks, and belittles me.She refused to see things from my perspective and understand my illness and it's "Blessings".Now she is just biologically alive, she is gone.She is delusional to the point where I suggest or say anything at all, she freaks out.I want to move out.Video games.Yeah!

I had been away from playing games for at least a month and a half due to me taking up creative writing,getting better mentally, and socially; so playing Shadow of Mordor at fairly high settings and at 60 FPS made my mind freak out.It was a bit trippy and somewhat relaxing but I found it hard for me to concentrate on what makes this game so damn great!Now that my mind has gotten used to the thrills of our favorite past time, I'm having a blast again!If you don't have the next gen/PC version of Middle Earth:Shadow of Mordor, I suggest you get it and play it before some of the big games of November come out, such as AC:Unity, Far Cry 4, and Dragon Age:Inquistion!

With my life, I'm recovering from mental illnesses that kept me in this house a for so long throughout the years.When I first started to recover, the way society can be so indifferent and cold towards a "nobody" hit me like a truck.I've gotten a lot better at socializing and empathizing with people due to writing, counseling and learning from disappointments and mistakes.I'm always looking for friends and a girlfriend but I have to wait.Waiting is always the hardest part.