I'm still seeing things from within the misty realm of sleep deprivation and I'm quite aware of it. But somehow I think it has helped me come to a conclusion in a matter that has been on my mind for the past years. Do I want kids? The fact of the matter is yes. Yes I do. I have realized that I can either devolve, go back to my former state and play MMOs' all day in my relative loneliness or I can move forward. Boldly go where most of the population ends up anyways. Join the breeder club. It's not rational, it's not like we need more people on this marble, but I can't help it. Biology is getting the better of me, it seems. I've allways dreaded this day. This "resignment" from life as I know it. But you know what? It doesn't bother me anymore, I'm fine with it now. In perspective, stagnation is far scarier. Sharks must swim for else they die.